i've been reading peoples' stories about LSD for the past half hour. some of them are so mind boggling and amazing and intriguing. now i'm excited and more curious than ever about it. one day, i want to cover my walls in white paper and drop acid and draw my heart out. i'm going to ask my mom what she thinks about this later, hahaha. she's gonna end up putting me in a mental hospital.

all i did today was clean my room, eat ramen, watch a marathon of MADE, and think about body mods. i think i'm gonna gauge my ears to 8-10g. i still haven't figured out what i want my next tattoo to be, but i'm getting a little anxious. i liked the feeling of being tattooed. i came up with the idea of drawing my own humming bird (symbolizing my grandfather) and have the artist just copy it. but i dunno, it's so hard to decideeeeeee. i've been telling my mom all of this stuff. all she does is scrunch up her eyebrows and laugh. i'm not really sure how i feel about this. i've just had the biggest urge to do all this stuff lately, and i'm not sure why. i've been overly sensitive and happy, that might it. i think i need to do something extravagant to contain myself.

he texted me today, said he was listening to dallas green and thinking about me. awww.