I don't relate music to my moods in the sense that music defines my mood or my mood is mitigated by my music. I can't take music at face value, among other things. When I listen to music, my mind immediately composes story elements connected to the lyrics and musical tone of the song, with action occurring in time to the music. It's not something I control or do consciously, just an instinctive creative reaction to hearing music. It is the story, produced by the music, that influences my mood. I often fail to emote when the occasion calls for it, instead repressing emotions (particularly negative or difficult emotions). While listening to music and mentally enacting the related story, I tap into the emotions required of the 'main character'. It becomes an emotional purge, as I finally accept and experience the emotions. My reactions while listening to music are intense and honest, they're just stitched on to a fictional representation of myself.

It's where most of my stories and art come from.

Not a healthy way to be, but the only way I know how to be.