Wow!  I'm talking to this guy on AIM.  His name's Jonas, and he messaged me many months ago on Facebook, interested in me because we were both atheists and Quantic fans.  He asked if I liked Amon Tobin, and for some reason or another I wasn't really all that interested in getting to know him.  I think that might have been when depression was hitting me hardest.  >.<

Anyway...also, wow, I'm listening to a Pandora station based on Amon Tobin and it's GREAT.  I love this stuff.  It's everything Massive Attack wanted to be, and more.  Or I guess...everything I wished Massive Attack were, until I found this artist.  I should be thankful to this Jonas fellow for sparking my interest.

We're having a pretty good conversation.  It's way different from most conversations I have with people, and I'm using my brain in a way it doesn't get used very often.  Hopefully I learn something from this.

God, swear to god I feel like I've unintentionally made a bunch of grammatical errors in my writing for the past...say...year or so?  Two years?  I need to start reading some fucking BOOKS.  And I just noticed that I said "God, swear to god."  Wow.  Bulking up my vocabulary would be nice, too.  Video games can only take you so far.

Whoa.

Conversation just got a little whoa.

I like it.  :D

He is certainly a different kind of person.

My kind of person.

I haven't met many of my kind of persons before...we'll see how things go.

Since I'm creepy, I'm going to post the conversation.  My text will be in...let's go with this brownish orangeish color, and his will be in blue.

AIM IM with Jonas <aloosagg>7/30/08 1:26 AM
good song, yorself!
yeahh, sigur ros is like magic!
so's amon tobin
oh yeah, i think you've mentioned him before
when?
long time ago, we were talking about quantic and you asked if i liked amon tobin too
i made a pandora station, hopefully it'll actually play amon tobin >_<
a song called "deo" is on now
it's cool so far, i like it
like what massive attack wishes it were
so, what have you been up to this summer?
a whole lot of nothing >< just cashiering part time to make money for school
i'm going to google in CA for a couple of weeks though, really soon ^-^
how bout yourself?
cool! where are you cashiering?
at meijer, blah >.<
where's google in california?
who will you stay with?
san francisco, methinks
it's all-expenses-paid so they've booked a hotel for us and everything
not sure who my roommate will be yet...
us?
it's only for two weeks
oh!
haha i sort of left out some important details...
it's some kind of "keep the youth excited in computing" thing; advisers had to appoint us and stuff, and we had to go through phone interviews
there're 17 of us
bunch of people from all over the country
i was shocked that i was picked because i did really shitty in the only computer science class i've taken at college >_> but hey AWESOME
yea, no kidding
guess they're desperate now what with the Cuil innovation
haha, uh oh, that could be
wow, i hadn't tried cuil before
it's nice o_o
yea, not bad,eh?
what's your degree in, again?
just general computer science so far
is see
so...
what are you doing right now?
and also...
who the hell is this?
lol...
i could ask you the same thing actually o_O
you're on my buddy list
and i think you messaged me a long ass time ago
i'll buzz off if ya want O_o
what will that accomplish?
do you play the guitar?
so weird
your name aIm name looks familiar
what did i message you a long time ago?
i'll see if i can find it, it must've been through facebok
facebook*
i think it was
are you xx
or xy?
xx
wait let me check on that >_>
ha
to remember which is which, not to check which sex i am <_<
i thought that was rather forward of you
i think i've got your number
o.O? my phone number?
figuratively
hmm
does your name begin with an M, by any chance?
yeah, it's Meryl
Meryl Mabin?
ha
purple t shirt?
lol, yep, that's it
electric guitar
these are the things that i remember of yo
you
perhaps there was a brief chat?
fellow atheist and quantic fan
grand rapids, eh?
yeah, ish
is mabin a jewish name?
heh, everyone asks where my name is from, but i have no idea >.<
so you're not jewish?
i'm part black and part dutch and part lots of things i don't know, so it's possible
fascinating
party coyote too it looks like
*part
lol
yes, i think i discovered you through facebook due to a mutual appreciation of Quantic
I was really diggin on him a lot at the time
plus we both go to the same school
and i love midnight trips to meijer for late-night grocery shopping
1:58 AM
haha, that does sound like fun...i used to live in holden so i always shopped at goodrich's, but i'm moving to mcdonel so surely i'll start going there instead...
i wish school would start already >.,
>.<*
i'm totally invading your privacy and checking out your profile right now
hope that doesn't feel invasive
nah, if anything it just makes me feel a tad bit self-conscious >.>
do you still have a facebook? i can't even find that message
your sister it would appear looks like a more likely candidate for the interracial mixing than you do, my dear
don't be
yeah, she's very adamant about getting skin cancer lately
tanning too
you look like a fun person
thanks amigo
atheists generally are
if i may paint with a broad brush stroke
yeah, generally more aware of themselves
and make absurd generalizations
lol
you certainly may
it's a refreshing thing to hear in conservative west michigan x_x
well, being more aware of oneself and having "fun" or a good time don't always go hand in hand
that's true
maybe atheists don't have it easier
i mean, shit, we're the ones confronting a godless universe
that's gotta be a little taxing on our spirits!
yeah, it can get rough >.<
but then they reach a resolve where they say, "the hell with it, if i only live once, i'm gonna gorge myself with every day"
eat life like a ripened orange and let the juice dribble down my chin!
right?
hence why you're probably not on facebook or aim too often
and have lots of pics of you hiking about in the wilderness
an Action Girl!
lol, if only every day were like that ^.^
that was a vacation in vermont
zen and the art of motorcycle main. kinda girl
SOOO much fun
that's vermont, eh?
yeah, that's a sweet book
and yeah, it's a mountain called Camel's Hump
and another one called Snake
one of my favs as well
it was fantastic
i'm in Maine right now, myself
yea, looks lush
oh that's awesome! what's maine like?
vermont
ish
only more conifers
more ocean
ooo
more rough rugged coastline
i'm way up northeast
"down east'' as they say
i went there when i was a really little kid, and the most vivid memories i have are of all the craggy rocks and the ocean
new england
exactly
barnacles eveywhere
in your soup!
no
lol
but it's a very fragrant land
always smells of pine and wild blueberries
wild roses
some of the most beautiful country i've ever seen
man...sounds like it, i wish i could escape this state more often
i reallllllllly want to study abroad in japan next summer if i can
Direct Instant Message session started

maine
wow
that's gorgeous
that's my backyard pretty much
oh MAN
super envy
yea, it's paradise
too much to ingest
overloading really
so, yea, Zen and AOMM is a great book, eh?
altho...
it's fantastic, i keep meaning to reread it
same here
if you had to attach a gender to it like the french do to nouns, what gender would you say the book is?
weird question, i know
mmm, i almost feel like i'd have to have synasthaesia to answer the question
haha
really?
it's that obscure to you?
it felt like a masculine book, but that could be because the author was a guy
right
the characters were all guys
yeah
the road and motorcycle maintenance and such...
'cept for the wives
yeah
all kinda masculine
more intellectual and phillisophical
...traits steretoypically associated with men
rarrg
stereotypically
yeah ^^;
would you say, these things considered, that your penchant for the book reflects something of you orientation?
what sort of orientation?
sexual
i mean, it's none of my business of course. you can tell me to go to hell if you want
lol, naw
i dunno, i'm definitely not very girly
but i'm also definitely into teh dudes
forgive me if i totally misunderstood the question >_>
no, i think you got it
i have been told that i carry myself sort of like a guy does
well, a lot like
haha, have you dated many dudes?
a modest amount, four or five
so you'd say you're relatively straight
yeah, i'm not against same-sex stuff but i have no interest
well, in that case, the fact that you seem to appreciate that book so much impresses me and i find it very attractive
thanks!
but of course!
i like that book a whole lot too and i find that most girls i've known just haven't found it interesting or find it too heady or something
forgive me if i'm coming off as chauvinistic or seomthin...
don't mean to be
naw, not at all
the fact that you dig it probably means you're a really interesting, hip, girl
that's all
i appreciate such recognition ^^
ha
don't we all
yeah ^^;
wanna be friends again?
sure! were we not friends?
well
depends on your definition
true...i guess i should ask what you meant by asking
we were facebook friends but after awhile i think i cleaned out my friends list and have not having heard from you, i think you got the chop
other than that, we've never met
and only sorta chatted maybe once
via chat here
so
by "friends" i meant "lovers"
i don't wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your lover
lol, house of cards, nice
yeah, let's be lovers
;)
lovers are friends anyway
just more intense
and intimate
this is true
seriously, in an xx/xy situation, why bother with mere friendship?
people who like each other would rather be lovers anyway, most likely
you get so much more out of it, don't you?
...at least in the short-run
it depends; it can be harmful
certainly more fun
more fun, though, absolutely
yes, it's not to say it's without its prices
and often there's just no sexual tension or attraction there, from one or both parties
where?
in a friendship?
yeah
that said, i don't think we'd be able to have a mere friendship, thus far, from my point of view
no?
but that's just me being flattering
no, i find you very attractive
i'm really into coyote hats
XD well you know, it really does compliment my figure
your feral figure?
perhaps. i hope that doesn't make me a furry =x
a furry?
just means wild, and untamed
like a wolf
all right, i can roll with that
ha
you have a nice figure as far as i can tell
it's funny...
/>the very first things i remembered about you when you mentioned the quantic thing was that you had a pic of you playing the electric guitar which i thought was cool ...
and a really dope pic of your in a purple t shirt
you look really good in that photo
thanks xD the picture amuses me
yes very cute
you're especially attractive without glasses
and your lips especially, in that photo look really lovely and very kissable
if i may say so
thanks ^^
you're welcome
well, i best be off to bed. i'll be chainsawing trees tomorrow morning for a conservation society
/>i'm glad we re-established our friendship as lovers
lol
lol, yes, it was a good move for the both of us
have fun lumberjacking and whatnot
many thanks, have fun googling
tanks!
until next time!
peace!
ciao!

Weirdness!  o_O  How often does that happen?  To me, never.  It was a pretty flattering conversation toward the end.  ^^;  Nice to hear from somebody that my lips look kissable.  That's fun.  Too bad I keep wasting them on Brett.

Getting sleepy...but I just kind of want to sleep in tomorrow, I don't know...I don't feel like spending all day waiting around to hear whether Brett can hang out or not.  I SERIOUSLY need to meet more fucking people.  I should hang out with Kaleb tomorrow!  I wonder if he'll be around?

Cookies!

I'm chatting with Bobby online now.  Things are going well.  I mean we're talking about Resident Evil and he's able to joke around and whatnot.

I'm glad I talked to Jonas today.  I know I've already said that a bunch of times.  It's just that...it's one thing to suppose that there are other people in the world aside from Brett McJerkface, and quite another to discover that there are other people in the world.  Hopefully going to Google will prove to be a similar experience.