I have spent the last several days worrying constantly about the situation with natalie and cory's family. It is so unhealthy because I get distracted in class and have trouble sleeping because I am thinking about it. It makes no sense because I know she is a liar and her and I have never been meant to be friends. I shouldn't be worrying about this. It is not my problem and I don't have any place being involved in it. I am pretty sure after thinking about it for a couple days that she is lying about the whole dex situation anyways. None of her friends would give her that and her cousins wouldn't either. She doesn't want to tell her parents because it doesn't actually exist and a doctor or professional would find that out if they tested her. She is just doing it for attention and to make her life more dramatic and scary. She is looking for a reason behind her depression and a reason to stop growing up. All this is is a dramatic plan to stop growing up. This is all so ridiculous. I hate her for making me worry and for making me freak out. She shouldn't be that important. I probably only care because I care about cory. He isn't thinking about it so he says then why should I? I don't understand myself. I just want all this to go away. I ask her how she is and she tells me and I write her back tons of stuff and then nothing. She doesn't write me anything back or get in touch with me in anyway. That is what I get for caring. She doesn't really care about anybody except herself. Cory was right in the stuff he originally told me about her. She is crazy and a liar. I believe nothing that comes out of her mouth unless it is backed up by other people or proof. I need to stop caring so much. I wanted so badly to like her, but I am convinced that she is lying to me and that I do not appreciate. I have been totally honest with her about my life. I hope to god she didn't make up the rape thing because that just isn't funny. I have been through it and it is not something to fabricate or lie about. It is not a joke or something you want to happen to you. Don't pretend that bad things happened to you. I have been there. I have been to those places and they are really really dark places and it just isn't funny. I hate her so much right now. I don't want to but I do.