Transition week Transition period  
Transfer~~"Transplant-ing"

/>Last week, I finally retyped / updated my resume. And had some help from Kelly and Alvin on the editing it! <Xie Xie Ni>

This week, I went KTV <Monday>; I went some Weight Mgt thingy <Tuesday>; I went out with a Frenster fren <Wednesday>; Had a 4hrs Meeting!<Thursday>........

/>In the midst of this week, one particular day, I had breakfast with Mich; and we were chatting then suddenly she pop-up with "THE" topic. I wasnt shocked with the topic but was shocked that she had a talk heart-to-heart talk and sharing with me during breakfast.
While chatting, it may seem that I am harsh <without giving any thought> but I had questions: -
"Can I still trust you?"
"Am I too harsh?"
"Hadn't I give chances?"
"Am I 'gong shi bu fen de ren'?"
"etc~~"
For those who know me: "Am I the 'yi shi cong dong' person?" "Don't I think before action?" "Don't I~~Haiz~~"
For Moon Missy and those that are caught in between: ">I am sorry to make you stuck in to middle" "I am sorry to make you choose" "I am sorry, this will not be able to resolve in the near future, cuz I can't forget the pain and cuts that had been made."

*sob sob*
I had many badly hurt frenships <just shared with Moon> "Can I trust Frens" "Who can I trust" "Who are frenz Who are not" "Who will stay by you when I am in pain" "Who are my soul-mate Who are FRENS"
*sob sob*
I am hurt & in pain. Shared and spoken to you, saying that I know you are together, I will put everything behind. But seeing everything, I am uncomfortable knowing that there are outing without me. Knowing it after things is over. But I dun share all these pain anymore CUZ I know if I do I will collapse and I will make others <who love and care for me> disappointed and be even more pain.

It is there~I dun know~I dun how~I just can act <like what Mich says "you can really act hor">~I just can 'yan shi'
I have many other things, thoughts~personal~~I...... =`(

~autumn~afternoon~