After downloading enormous amounts of Modest Mouse/Ugly Cassanova songs... I realize that they are probably my favorite band. Or, it's a close tie with Animal Collective/Avey Tare/Panda Bear and the like. A three way tie with Devendra!! The Microphones/Mount Eerie are an easy second. Yeah Yeah Yeahs yeahyeahyehayehahyaaayeaheyah thurd. And just missing fird place was Spoon, but I still love you alotalot bebe.

Whatever I'm too bored to go on from there.


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"Some days I wish I didn't have to eat and some days I don't. Grandpas often say that soon you'll just take a pill and that's how you'll eat as if that's a bad thing but I think that it would be a good thing. My appetites broken. Eating seems like a chore. Lately eating feels like when eating felt like I was choking down food because I was love sick and maybe because you hurt my heart a bit. Now, eating just seems like a waste of time, like I'm expending more energy than I'm getting from the food. Like all food is celery - negative calories, because your stomach and liver burn more calories to produce the chemicals that burn those fiber strings which are called the heart of the celery stalk and which romantically enough is the most tender part of the celery (which calling it the brain would make it less romantic but more true which are two polar opposites). And also celery is a diuretic which means it makes you go pee a lot. And it's not that I want to be skinny. And inevitably there are those who accuse me with Africa, but that's a lost cause and the only thing they're doing about it is talking about it like most of the issues of Now, talk talk talking about how you like to be spontaneous but the only time that you're spontaneous is when you bring up the idea of spontaneity into a conversation because spontaneity has become an idea when gas if $4.11 a gallon the word spontaneity (that you probably DO know how to spell because you list it in all the electronic boxes where you are to describe yourself with adjectives such as ex.) Fun) into a conversation because you're always thinking about but you're never doing anything about it because you've yet to realize that doing is different than saying and talking about and of. And eating is also depressing, like watching the 56 year old manager at Forever 21 work eating a #2 from Taco Bell everyday which is fitting because she is the co-manager and not even the store manager which is the best you can do in that division. And watching fat kids eating. And watching my dog eat his dog food everyday (which people will tell you that they don't even mind eating the same food everyday because they don't know the difference because they're just dogs which is why the beg so much and which is why they like treats and) And watching anorexic girls eating and then imagining those anorexic girls playing soccer on a dirt field among other Ghanaian babies whose stomachs are bloated not from PMS but from kwashiorkor. And PMS being delayed by girls of America who play three sports in high school and who are also failing three classes. And those anorexic girls dressed up in prom dresses and those same anorexic girls getting their picture taken in front of a white wall dressed in the granny panties which are flat in the front and loose around the hips which are supposed to be wide for child bearing, which is also sad to think about. Those who emaciate by choice not chance. I'm not sure how it went but something like this: "If we are to believe that morality exists we must believe that humans have the ability to choose". Choose such a weird word Like one of those words that you say so much that it doesn't even have any connotations left like sex and fuck which are the same. Sexing and fucking and fuck! but not sex! because there are these things called morals which exist because we do not choose to say things like sex! equivocation being tricky concept as well like morals Like your mother is not a whore because she is your mother but she has lots of boyfriends because she is lonely not because she is a whore like your Aunt Debbie who is a genuine slut or the Wal-Mart lady Patricia Winters who waits by the door incase the sensors go off because your not-a-whore mother went to high school with Patricia Winters, that little (s) hanging on to the end of her would-be-okay last name which if said the right (or wrong) control could make her sound all the more of sssslut, Patricia Wintersssss or My Patricia Winters as would be pronounced by her mother who is also probably a slut as she doesn't even have the same last name (Derringer) so that must mean that she was unmarried which all unmarrieds are sluts from birth stained with the original sin of EVE (which is also EVE backwards) or either knocked up which indicates a slut unless it was rape but they were saying that she probably wanted it anyway and that it was probably incest judging by the product and anyway she's probably a slut too because these things are genetic like freckles and ulcers. I would love to be the lady who stood by the sensors at Wal-Mart or Wal*Mart because the whole time as the people were walking out with a box of Trojans in their messenger bags they'd be thinking what a piece of trash I am with my tootsie-roll bang and acne scars but when they went off they would suddenly think that I was pretty in a weird way like how super models look ugly in real life but in pictures they look way better, and they'd turn around and maybe put their hands up like suddenly Wal-Mart is a bank of sorts (which I suppose it is after some lengthy equivocation) and they're saying "Well yeah it was probably the CD that I bought earlier at the mall earlier" as though I was their friend which is a psychology tactic that I would know about because those ladies by the doors of the Wal-Mart sensors are masters of psychology after a few months on the job and they'd step down the rungs of the power ladder (once I went to a church down in West Bloomfield where a "hip" pastor brought a ladder on stage and stepped halfway up and is saying that "You see when a person's here that means they're farther away (the floor being a poor person so this means I'm rich standing here) from god and it was David who said that it's harder for a rich-" in which he continued to sex a bible quote but the whole time I was thinking You're not even at the top of the fucking ladder if you have so much trust in your God then why don't you step at least up the step that says ¡Atención! ----- ----- ----- of which you wouldn't know what it says because God spoke the language of Aramenglish) and onto MY rung."