i threw my phone on the ground and it splattered into pieces, lost my pocket knife that my step dad gave to me when i was 9, lost my house key, and i'm banned from sleeping over at Tom's. i was suppose to go to Rocky Horror, but no way home and Molly will be there. not really what i need right now. i'm back in my state of depression. fucking flaky ass therapist. dahga;fajdhgjfhgaj! >:O i want to...

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for these last three days, i have done nothing but cry. i am going insane. i'm losing my mind.

seems like the holidays are bringing both love and lust for people on lj. well, good luck to all of you. i have a bad feeling about the near future.

Tom won't tell me his middle name... and it's annoying me! ahahahahahaha! i don't have to go to school until noon tomorrow. hooray! i've recently noticed my lack of motivation for photography... i think i've given up finally. organizing things in my room is easier than i anticipated :) i skipped the first four periods of school today, but two are free periods. so whatever. narf narf. i'm hella bored...

nothing else much happened today. i'm having the worst time trying to focus on makeup work for school. i will most likely fail bio this semester. this weekend i'm going to rearrange my room (and clean it). i'm going to put yarn in my hair too. hooray! but umm yeah... okay, bye!

things with Tom are good. actually, they're great. i have no complaints, which is really nice, because i complain way too much. i'm excited for school tomorrow (and yes, i'm serious). ever since i switched schools, i've been a lot happier. i think not living with my mom has a lot to do with it too. i know that seems mean to say, but if you knew my mom, you'd understand. i got to spend Thanksgiving...

i get that peopl e are conce rned about me, and i know they are only worri ed, but to be hones t, i wish they would just let me make my own mista kes and learn from them for once. i need to be able to make my own decis ions witho ut other peopl e's opini ons influ encin g me. how else am i suppo se to be my own perso n? i'm not an idiot . i'm matur e enoug h to handl ...

I've forgotten what my face, fingers, hair, and skin feel like. They don't feel the same. Maybe I'm just so use to touching someone else's face, fingers, hair, and skin that I've simply forgotten what mine feel like. My beliefs are non-existent in my mind right now. I will have an opinion about something, but ignore it and somehow make it disappear. Not because I want it to, but because it seems like...

i definitely surprised everyone :) Molly didn't go to school, so someone will probably tell her and ruin the surprise... oh well. she'll still be happy i bet.  i have geometry with Dorian! i didn't have that class today, but i'll have it tomorrow. we are going to tell the teacher that i need to sit next to him because he's the only person i know. i got out at 1:55, and i'm home right now wondering...