I could be a better mother My baby just spent 5 days in the hospital...w/pneumonia.   He kept twisting his hand around, and pulling out his IV, so they had to stick him w/needles and tape a little hose up to his little head, for oxygen.... He was so good too. He didn' t cry alot, or struggle when they gave  him his medicine. I felt so aweful thinking that there was something I could have done to...

Tonight as I was browsing through myspace, I stumbled across my Matt's exgirlfriend.  As I nose around I start reading all her little interests, like the fact that she's addicted to a certain TV show-it happens to be his favorite too.   Moving on, they also seem to share alot of the favorite movies, and music...call me crazy, or childish, but my wheels start to turn.  So I begin to think back......

Did NOT bring me flowers home today.... He left me here all day w/nothing to drink .... No baby food....... the essentials I NEED to have a happy day! He did however ... bring me a turkey & cheese sandwhich, batteries, & the Addams Family , season 2. How strange of him.....  

It suddenly dawned on me today that I have completely messed up the only thing I've had going for me...my emotions have gotten the best of  me AGAIN!  Instead of sitting quietly by and leaving someone else to right the wrongs of the world, I of course, have to get all bent out of shape and let it get to me.  I guess this goes back to my awesome social skills. But then again I've done a pretty...