Every once in a while, I have a patch where I kinda just fall apart a bit. I think right now is one of those times. I'm finding everything that happens just piles more shit on. I'm getting this distinct feeling of fragility. And I'm pretty sure I don't understand anything about life. I thought I was getting it... but recent events are kind of pointing at more of a negative answer. And by kind of, I...

Yesterday was an awful day. All day on the radio I heard about the people in Mumbai. It didn't really have any effect on me until about lunchtime when I head two words that made my stomach drop... "Brooke Satchwell" I hadn't even known she was over there. I was shocked. I bolted to the car where Mum was just pulling out. She rolled down the window and I said, "Brooke's in Mumbai". Mum didn't understand...

If a girl is incredibly proud of a fairly big weight loss and is beginning to actually LIKE her body, you don't tell her shes "not exactly thin". It is the most crushing and degrading and demotivating thing you could possibly do. Especially when although she isn't a waif like some of her friends, she has a pretty small waist. I need to stop feeling so defensive about my weight >

I swear to god I feel like I am dying. I hate being sick. I intended to get things done this weekend but of course I slept instead.And I'm meant to be at work but instead I am at home feeling like death warmed up... Who knew it was this boring? At least I bought a bunch of books on Saturday =)

Sometimes it feels as if the whole world loves me... Except the person/ people i want to love me. And why do the people I want have to tell me about their relationship problems and the people they are crushing on. It's not fair.

Things I need/want right now in no particular order: Brown Leather Corset A couple of Nerf Mavericks Some more Victorian clothing An appointment to neaten my dreads New Bras My website set up New lenses for my camera To get laid Warmer weather To be able to live closer to the city Spats More fingerless gloves A steampunk coat More time To go to America sooner To move out To learn to...

I know I don't want to be with Matthew. And I know separating from him is what I needed. But recently I have definitely been missing the closeness of having someone that cares about me. I need hugs and affection and company on demand. My friends give me all they can and I appreciate it greatly... But I'm even more needy than that. Without that connection to someone, I feel very detached. I'm aware...

Am attempting to learn to sew, and sew a skirt and bustle by Saturday night... Wish me luck. I think I'll need it haha! Will probably make some jewellery and accessories as well =P

So I was talking to my friend Brad tonight... And he tells me that our friend Jarryd's mum was murdered 2 days ago. I wasn't that close to Jarryd but I am super close with his best friends. And I hung out with him for a while when I visited them all. He's a cool kid. It's really horrible that this happened to him. I'm talking to my friend Nathan right now and he's pretty cut up because it's brought...

I got my first proper paycheck on Friday so I went shopping. Except for my work boots which were desperately needed, I also bought a couple of rather steamy items of clothing. I got a shirt, some adorable heels and the most awesome boots ever. I'll get the last pair I wanted next week. I'll post pics after tonight =D