Sid... bless him. I mentioned it to him that we'd broken up and he started telling me how much he cared about me. I was like 'awh cheers' He was saying there'd always be guys like him who didn't think the way guys like 'him' did. He said he'd always be around for me to come and talk to and to not forget it. He told me he'd feel a bit priviledged to go out with me. Then we talked about his guitar...

Today started with a good old fashioned dumping. Nice. I always seem to be making coffee when it happens. I'm pretty upset tbh. I actually liked the guy. Which doesn't really happen. I threw everything away with other people and went for it. I should've known it would have fallen flat. I was thinking if I make it til summer then it'll be good, I'll be able to talk to him and stuff. But... just fucking...

The next couple of weeks could be complete hell. God knows the past few weeks have been. So heres a great big sorry to you all for every cold look, every snap, every complete loss of sanity in advance. I'm not in top form to say the least. And no honey I'm not getting angry at you for no reason, I just get frustrated s'all. You know I love you to shreds. Stress doesn't agree with me. You'll probably...

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thinking back on it it was a bit fucking lame of me. Yeah she might have said some pretty awful stuff but tbh I stopped wanting to be her friend for ages because she wasn't 'cool'. FFS how fucking lame can you get man. W/e the past is the past. I've thought about it before, but never blamed it on myself. But it was. I do this all to myself after all. It's a shame. The scars still show. ;//

   I'm not right in the head these days. I know I'm just throwing myself into coursework to get away from all the shit thats going on. Todays day one of the crash diet... dude I have a cold to help me along. I want to be the same size as that picture I took at the end of last summer. It's no anorexic its just lacking fat, back in the days when my whole stomach would tense and relax, it was just...

  Well i can say oli sykes has officially made me smile again. He's doing a modelling competition and he's making everyone send their applications to my hometown. XD if you people could see the state of 'STEP business centre' it's opposite the lidl in a rundown town that is full of narrowminded homophobes. I thought he'd be well away by now. But apparently he's still based in Stocky. bless. ...

This song makes me want to cry... its the shit song. Its the song I relate to most when i feel like shit.... it just makes it worse though now  Everybody feels blue sometimes You gotta keep your own head up and keep on tryin' And if you feel the urge to raise your hand You can start a revolution or start a band You better sing your song and sing it loud But you better not here and you...

I don't know why I do, I know I'll find something I don't like. I don't think he's a real fan of mine anymore... He didn't like Valentine's Day because I said we wheren't doing anything. He didn't like it a couple of weeks ago. He didn't know what to do when he'd come round to what had happened and he didn't know whether or not to bother. I bet he wishes he hadn't bothered now. :/ Hmph... The kid...

Stream-of-consciousnessness is underrated. It can produce some really wonderful stuff. Force yourself to type non-stop for 3 minutes. Subject matter is irrelevant. Be as indulgent as you want. Be as deadly serious as you desire. Be as whimsical as you wish. Resist the urge to touch up the edited product, other than spelling errors. Then read it. What you have is a carbon copy of your mind...