I love being high, but I just have an awkward situation. I like Emilie, admiting I do now just makes it more solid. But part of me knows I havnt got a chance, but the other part of me is like fuck yeah you have. I think she knows by now, and I've noticed sandy is a bit smut around her. But yet I continue with prival sinister thaught about how I can get closer. Its fucking pathetic. But when those...

Just watched 1hourphoto and well let's just say it's left me in a low mood. Not only that but Emilie just made a comment about me being grumpy all day. When I havnt noticed. I've been more bored then anything else today. Maybe it was a light hearted remark. None the less I should look at the way I act in the future. Thought for today is "being inwardly focused is not selfish, its our best protection...

This weekend marks my first couch surfing event. The ever popular Edinburgh rocks. And let me just say it was the best weekend I've had in Britain, actually in a while. Day 1 We went dancing at the celiedh, hopefully I spent that right. Now just think line dancing without the line, and alot of spining around. But all and all great fun. Afterwhich was drinking. Day 2 I overslept and missed the...

Just a little anxious today, I could be working but im afraid working in a call center is making me a bitter person. I wish I had money to do more. I've been playing pool all day against the south African bus and the guy managing the hostel for a day. But I've now become bored of it. Now I'm just sitting at the window watching people walk by. And its just giving me a headache. Thinking about going...

This morning it feels like my stomach is in a better state. I'm trying to de-stress and just put all my problems into the back of my mind until I get to work atleast. Last night I had a chat with the south african boys in the hostel. And hopefully I'm able to get a job at this hotel in pitlochry. It just sounds like a good oppertunity to make some money and new professional friends. I really hope...

Tried to go into work this afternoon but they didn't have anything available for me so u had the most comfortable nap I the park just outside work. Think I might do it more often on my days off. Also just got a MSG from emilie asking about wild camping in Edinburgh which I'll look into tonight. I might even join her. Just depends really

I feeling anxious today, perhaps its because I need to organize things with work. Or maybe it's still the looming bill my ex roommates are worrying about. Either way I don't like it. And I know its going to eat at me all day. Which makes it hard for me to concentrate. Its driving me nuts.

Well today was just a mess of stress and panic. I needed to think hard about how I'm going to survive for the next four weeks. And with only £200 its not an easy task. Because £100 needs to be saved for the running of the bulls tour. And hopefully it will last afterwards aswell. Because if incase I don't get this job in globetrotter I will need to quickly organize myself another job. And with this...

Well, to begin. I'm just trying this out because of a nifty little program I got on my iPod today. Its just a matter of time before I completely forget about it. Anyway my hike finished a few days ago and I am now back in Edinburgh where hopefully I can prevent my money dwindling too much... I am so god damn broke. Well I'm off to do something with my day. -Dan out