(The Title is the main lyric to the opening theme of Wolf's Rain, and kind of an inside joke now between Erik & I)

Well nothing much as truly changed since my last update, now 6 days ago.

Pretty much still packing stuff up, throwing stuff out, and moving to the new apartment (w/the help of some friends).
It's kind of frustating though. Erik & Jose have helped when they can. And Billy has helped the most (due to him having the time more then the other 2). But when I first was about to start moving. I had offers and agreements and "yeah no prob I'll be there" from mad ppl. And all I ended up getting help from was the usual suspects. That's why they always have been, and always will be my brothers. I have never allowed or accepted anybody else into our circle. Close friends, sure, Brothers like I feel w/Erik, Bill, & Jose...never. And I think the others would agree. Many have tried to grab hold of this bound, and even wish to share it on our level. But it's never the same, never quite the same. So it never really works. *this is just my opinion*

But besides this, w/their help, it's looking pretty good. I've had quite a few bumps in the road to slow down the process. But overall, looking pretty good. I plan on getting the moving company and then cable hooked up w/in these next few days.

The probably has been money. But Erik has offered to help me there, I'm a bit shy to ask, maybe even a bit prideful, but I know I need the help. And sometimes, there's nothing wrong w/excepting a little help.

Let's see, what else...*thinking*...
Oh ok, Billy's Birthday is soon. I mean, REALLY SOON. Although I have a little list of things I know I'm going to get him, I'm just to short on the doe right now. But he understands, so I'll probably get the stuff Friday (PAYDAY) and present them to him later in the day, or over the weekend. And speaking on Birthday's, Susan's is coming up soon too, and Courtney's just passed. So plenty of Birthday's all around. And my Dad's is soon, followed a week later by my own.

My Birthday is still up in the air. I'm leaning and probably going to stick to going to Dave & Buster's in Time Square. So probably head there during the early afternoon, walk around NYC. Nice big group of friends. And head over to D&B's and enjoy the rest of the afternoon/night. Should be fun...I hope. I did want to go back to Atlantic City but Nobody really has the money for that. Including the Birthday Boy, so that would be kinda silly. But I have plenty of time to decide. I also want to celebrate my first apartment when Me and Autumn get in there. Wouldn't mind some house warming gifts *cough cough*. Damn it, I caught Bill & Erik's Cough.

My mom is doing good, last few times I've seen her she's looked pretty good. I told the old lady across from her (her roommate) to "Shut Up!". LOL My mom thinks bad things as it is, I don't need this lady filling her fragile head w/fucked up shit about the place I have her staying in. So while I was visiting and showing my mom some things I've bought her, this lady was going off about the place, and this and that. So I turned to her and said, "Will you Shut Up!". Then proceeded w/my mom. LOL I'm a BEAST. j/k

" Luda's a BEAST!" ROFL <------=*Only Erik will get that*

Anywayz...I'm up to episode 93 in Naruto. Erik is dying to ruin shit for me, but I trust he won't. Unless I deserve it of course. And now I'm watching Wolf's Rain. Which I caught alil' of when it was first put out on Adult Swim. I remember liking it. So no surprise this time around, I like it. So far so good I would simply put it. Still hooked on GTA IV. But the missions are getting harder & longer. Fucking shit, but I love it too much to not keep trying.

And I'll leave it off w/this topic...Me and Erik are starting to get a horrible rap for being gay at work. ROFL. I mean it's getting extreme. And now everyone knows that Rich calls me Snuggles and I call him Fuzzy. LMAO. Oh man, too funny. But it's starting to spread like wild fire. And everywhere I go, someone else is bringing it up. Not to mention the fact that last night during lunch...Mo came in and tickled me (doesn't get any gayer then that) and we continued to talk about getting an colonoscopy. Oh man, it was all too fucking gay and funny. And now my one boss is doing this when he sees me, "Hiiii Matthewwwwwww". Picture that said in a long dragged out fashion w/the gayest softest voice your could use. LMAO.

And besides that, I find myself always tempted to say stupid inside jokes and shit like that over the radio for everyone to hear. Knowing only my buddies at work will get it, usual inside jokes for me and Erik. I know eventually they are going to be like, "Matt, wtf are you saying on the radio, ok cut it out." LOL. Maybe I shouldn't push my luck.


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Well, now I'm going to go on about an issue I am struggling with. I'm going to apologize right now for this entry being entirely too long. But it's been awhile, and I have shit on the brain. And it's went from my brain down to my chest, and I need to get it off before I have heart complications.

I have been planning for some time now, a 5th Anniversary party. Whether it be in a Hall, down the shore in a Shore House. Maybe a Party - Sit Down Dinner - Club kinda night. But one way or another I want this to happen. I wasn't going to tell Autumn but I think she has a say in the night since it's our night.

I've only told Susan, Erik, Jose, & Billy. I would be inviting probably around 15 I believe. I kinda just want it to be intimidate friends and whatnot. And thanks to Susan, she is doing to leg work for me, running around checking out places and getting prices and whatnot. I appreciate that too since obviously w/the lack of time I have, and all the shit I'm going through right now, her assistants is much needed, and again, appreciated.

But there are a few things that are making me like, "what do I do".
1.) Who else would be invited after the original list
2.) MONEY MONEY MONEY
3.) Date/Time/Place(s)
But all of those thus far seem like they can be worked out as time passes and things get narrowed down and worked out.

But there is one issue that seems to have come up every time I tell someone about the idea.
That's right, you guessed it, DRINKING???

Oh the old Drinking topic. For those who know Me and Autumn about this issue, would already recognize that Drinking would definitely be an issue.
And some even know the case of Matthew, Erik, & Autumn vs. Friends in the matter of Drinking and Why. So as you can imagine, this has been a topic of debate for quite some time now.

Now I'm pretty sure Autumn is going to say, "No DRINKING" right off the bat. And to be honest, I usually would share that feeling. But this time I dunno.

It's like a party-party. Not just like sit around doing nothing but drinking and being retarded kinda thing. And actual party or whatever. And I have said plenty of times, the thing I don't get w/Billy and company is that, they drink for no other purpose but too drink. And Billy has made it clear that there's basically nothing else to do or any other way to have fun but to do drink. Which just makes me shake my head. Such a disappointing way to think.

I know they say, and so I've heard, they don't do it anymore the way they used to a year or so ago. And that even now they are alot better about it. As in being better behaving themselves and not getting outta hand and shit. And although my friends (Billy in particular) take quite a defensive approach when discussing the issue...he too swears that it would be fine. But I've have witnessed first hand, and heard enough stories, to have my own opinion of that group when they drink.

And not just them, I know Autumn's friends like to drink. I've seen and heard about it like wise. So, them too would probably wish to have something there to drink. But I would doubt they are anything like the group I'm comparing them too.

And besides that, a certain someone HAS TO SMOKE ya know what whenever we do shit. Especially when it's a party and drinking is involved. And I certainly will not stand for that.

But like even when I first mentioned this event to Billy & Jose. First thing outta Bill's mouth was..."Drinking?" And it's just like, OMG is that all that matters. Even though I'm sure he was just asking but I have a short fuse w/the idea so I automatically get like, *SIGHHHHHHH*

But it just seems like, drinking is still too important to my friends. And I mean all of them. Not just BILLY!!!! Even though when he reads this, He'll think it's mainly about him and say something like "I know Matt, I'm just a drunk asshole". Which I have never said once to him yet he always brings that up like he has heard me say it to him many times over. LOL

But I'll say this, and end it with this...If I/We decide, there will be NOOO Drinking. AND NO SMOKING *drugs* , and due to this, ppl don't show up, or want to come. Or even give me a hard time about it...Then I'll know who my true friends are. There's one fact about that night in the making, and that it's Me & Autumn's Night. Our Night. Not a let's get wasted or let's be stupid night. A special night. And if the night is ruined by ppl not coming due to no Drinking and what not, then I would be crushed to know that it's more important then coming and sharing a beautiful milestone in my life. And enjoying this special night despite there being no booze for the booze hounds.

Well, I have yet to make my decision, so I guess we'll see.
See You in the New Apartment.







***Inside Joke w/Erik***
"Pirate!"