Hallo to everybody! I've returned after more than two years. How are you? I'm fine, but only a bit...shocked! I have to explain: two years ago I've chosen to change my life, definitely! I've grown up, I've changed myself, my style, my character, my friends...but I've also lost a part of me, an important part that I've left behind. I've done that because I wanted to be a better person, I wanted to look good, I wanted to have success, I wanted to go away, I wanted to blow it all away...Now, it isn't an happy period and after a conversation with a friend of mine I've understood that he had reason: my life is a disaster...Now, I'm thinking about who I was before: I was hapy before...It was me that did not accept myself, not the others! And now I've obtained the opposite result! I'm writing here because I hope it will help me to forget and start it over again! I've to make another effort for myself because I'm going under, I always have blue...I can't go on in this way or I'll destroy myself. This isn't the first time I have felt this way, but now I don't want to reach that point, I want to stop before is't too late! I'll change and I'll do it only for myself, I have to count on myself, I have to have more self confidence, I have to make it on my own and grow up, another time, another step to...to what? To me, it's easy...I want to thak two people in particular: Elisa, that made me enter in this virtual world, without you I could do nothing with the computerm I only could play solitary or something like that. Thank to you I've learned a lot of things, I've also known the person who always helps me now and who helped me to understand that I vahe a big problem, that I didn't see before...So, thank to you Elisa, now you are far away from here, we've lost conctacts...but I really hope that one day we can meet again, I'm in debt with you...and thank to Andrea! I've said it to you a lot of times, but you have changed me a lot, you've always been by my side...I hope it will continue in this way! I promise it will get better, I make it for me, but also for you! Wait me people!!! See you soon!PS. Sorry for the grammar mistakes if there are some ^^' I still learn, in a year my English will be perfekt ;-) Rasmi23