It's October and it's a Friday night.. and I'm in my dorm room. For the first time in awhile, I've grounded myself. I don't feel the need to go out every night. It's times like this, on silent nights when I'm by myself, I learn the most or I simply just get to reflect or calm my mind down. But the more I'm away, the more I miss my family and the friends that know me best. I can't replace my family and it takes awhile to build up more of the great friendships I love to have. Despite missing the people who mean the most to me, I can't really see myself anywhere else. I love the fall weather that's taken over Tallahassee and I just love walking around the campus everyday. Classes can be a struggle for me, the way they used to give me trouble in high school, but I'm really working on prioritizing and doing what I can to succeed. I refuse to let things just happen to me again. And I haven't found my niche here yet.. I don't know exactly what I want to be a part of here yet. Maybe that is what is leading me to these quiet nights. The first year is always the hardest, and I can't believe its already half way into the fall term and I'm supposed to register for spring classes very soon. But like everything in my life, I'm just taking it one day at a time. I just have to keep letting myself believe God has my future taken care of and I don't need to worry.