or lets not.

anyway,
went to fire party tonight. was fun. thank you for having me. had one black spotted cow, ale drink...ah...finnally a drink that i can become an alcholhic on...i am close to evolving to my ultimite state, just like say a caterpiller becoming a butterfly or perhaps Goku evolving into first sj1, then 2, etc...until he reached sj4!....i shall now evolve to drunken white trash person, like pretty much everyone else in this little corner of the world, because its the cool thinkg to do. that said, black spotted cow...not bad...not bad at all.

so whats new? idk...not much. fraid i haven't really gotten much of my programig done, but i'm sort of that way. i can summon up an infinite amount of energy upon a task, and work on it with unbelievable tunnel vision...and then i can promptly forget about it, and the task had better be damn fucking lucky to ever hear from me again. anyway, that said, hopefully get some work done soon on that stuff. i have some ideas that i am very excited about...just a question of time, will, and energy.

what else? working, lots of working. jenny on maternity leave now. so lots of lots of working. got some ot and finally another raze. i turned down a perfectly respectable economically satisfying job offer because a) i didn't want to desert my team when they were going to need me most. i do not betray or desert people. i do care, unlike some folks. b) i just couldn't see myself doing that, working there. yeah...it would have been good money. 35k. and great benefits...and technically in my field (help desk)....but no, just no. i want a job that i can feel empasioned by, a job i'd care about...a job where i could do something i love, work on something that is important to me. trading one job that is lack luster for another ain't the right path. maybe most people take that path, but screw that. seriously.
what else? helped keegan move. proud of he and lynne. all grown up now. hung out with sister and her kids muchly. went to the zoo with them one day. they grow. much crying and much work though. being a parent would be a hard job. lots of sacrifise...more than i can ever say. its amazing though. also got to visit with brian and joe a. they live in susex now, which has a disproportinatly high number of hot women for such a hick town. also played lots of rifts and lots of d&d. in d&d we have basically stollen the alien technology that was powering the ship, and driven it through the apocalypse, to the other side of the world, where demons, golems, aliens, and dragons seem to be battling. in rifts my crazy has gotten more crazy...i now have multiple personality disorders, which roxors...one of my personality is a betrayer. so i had a bunch of juicers attack my party member that has a phobia of juicers, and i also tried to sell our cyborg leader to the people that harvest parts from cyborgs. fun fun. being evil can be good.
went to kari's wedding last weekend. thank you very much for having me there, mam. it was an honor. i'm sorry that i was a bit down. not having any one to dance with for the most part and not really having anyone to talk to very much does that. also, i had been hoping to see someone there, who wasn't there, which made me sad to. all very weird.
tried to fix some things, only to damage them more. what can i say? not much, literally. as i wrote on facebook, i may as well try to put out an inferno by pouring the remaining supply of the world's oil over the fire. it would do about as much good. i'm glad that things are sort of okay, but i'd say in the end i didn't go fifity fifty...i'm lucky if i went ten ninety. i understand that some people have their own lives, and really, i do wish them well with that, and i am there for them if they need me, though i also wish that some people would let themselves feel a bit more...i'm not sayig that have to feel that...i understand they will never feel that...but they could feel something. should it take a week to write a short one paragraph reply?
ah, whatever. i hate how sexed the world is, i hate how drunk the world is, i hate metrosexuals, and i really wish everyone cared far far more.
hmmm...but going off of that, i will say that i guess i understand more and more, and that people that requested an lj entry can be happy, cuz here it is.
i guess all you can do in the end is be there and try to smile and be happy for the people, and understand that while i am suffering from sad storms of illogic and emotional strife due to this, other people are suffering it due to that, and it all goes right around, and we ARE all in this together.

on an uphand note, i learned that nick and the brothers m also play frisby golf, so i think we could definetly have some more leagers or just players to join us when we play, which would be nice to have some new blood out there.

personality tests to be added shortly.

but yeah, wanted to get an lj out there, because its been requested. sorry to write it when i am blitzed, but hey, its all good. if anyone is to offended by any of this, let me know.
thanks.