Hannah graduated from high school on Thursday night. Erek and I went to the grad. party at her house beforehand - she looked so beautiful and happy. :) Some endings are truly exciting, like the one she is experiencing.

Some are decidedly more scary. Our group had a good-bye party for Zach at the Moose last night, and very few people showed up. Of course, it was a last-minute(ish) sort of thing, as he announced this past Wednesday that he would be moving to Decatur on Sunday (today). In parting, Zach got up onstage and played a few songs for us on his guitar, I sipped a cosmo and discussed politics with Shane and Kayne, and Clay and Lindsay avoided each other. Slightly awkward, but not a bad night. I just wish more people had been there. :(

When we all said "good-bye" to Zach in the Waffle House parking lot around 2 a.m., I was overcome by a feeling of sadness. Our group isn't whole anymore. I'll miss driving around Oxford in his car on random errands, his strange jokes over martinis at the Moose, and his texts - "wanna do something tonight? yeah? GREAT." I'm happy for him, though, of course...he's got a job doing what he loves, and the pay is really good. :) The kid has a bright future. I'll just miss him.

Speaking of missing - I sent hand-written letters to Lin, Kelsey, and Whitney right after graduation. I actually wrote them during spring break, but I didn't want to burden them with my thoughts during the last (crazy!) month of school. I haven't heard back from any of them, and I am not sure how I feel about that. In a way, I want to move on, but then there's that part of me that will always want to be friends again. Or at least feel like I'm not hated, y'know?

Tomorrow, I'm having dinner at Erek's house. I'm nervous/excited. People keep asking me if we're official, and I tell them that we're not...because it really wouldn't be fair to either of us to start a relationship right before I move. But we have a good time together, and we make each other laugh...and that's enough for now. ;) When I leave, things will end, and that'll be okay, too.

So, to recap, some things are ending. Hannah's life in Jacksonville. Zach's life in Oxford. Three friendships I always hoped in the bottom of my heart to regain. An almost-relationship with a nice boy. Exciting and scary...