I should do an f-list cut. But there are some bridges I don't think I should burn. And always in these issues I feel like I should own my half of my problem, that really my issues (passe word, I want a different one) with others are really issues with myself.

But then really, it's the Internet, not a medium for making myself a better person. Necessarily.

/>My fandom post kind of re-iterated a lot of feelings of please don't say what you really think in me which is crux of the issue. BUT. I feel like I'm too nice to say them/I wouldn't win the argument anyway and have no desire to really drive myself into that brickwall just yet. I feel the need to apologise for that post, which annoys me because I'm not sorry, but still somehow feel like I've offended the general populace of mod-dom at ga_fanfic.

I have insecurities which I don't like lately, like, really hate. I'm about bursting with the feeling of wanting more comments to allay my fears and the counter-feeling of that's so fucking stupid.

I should do my assignment. And I am a hypocrite.