Seriously, why do I care so much what people think of me? It bugs the crap out of me. And I've been sooo stressed lately and it sucks.

I'm so sick of wondering when he'll call. I'm so sick of wondering what he's doing. It hurts to feel like he doesn't care at times, he doesn't think of what he's saying when he says it. I mean he fricken plays world of warcraft when were having a serious conversation. I just don't understand him, and even though I tell him how I feel, he doesn't change. Or he will change for a little bit then goes back to what he did before. It's just really hard for me and I don't want to seem controlling. I love him so much it hurts and I don't want to lose him, but i'm sick of crying and getting mad at him for stupid reasons. I just wish he could see that a relationship is 2 way thing - you each have to put in your own part. And I wish he would see that him calling me, before I call him, makes my day - literally. I love when I don't have to call first because he beats me to it. Or looking at my phone and it saying "1 missed call- Bret Andrew" UGH. 



I LOVE HIM, I really, really do :(