free slurpies today at 711 since today IS 7/11/2008!

okay..so last night i went to sevillas with my friend [codename] coolest and gino. we ended up meeting ginos cousin there because he was my "date". come to think of it...i musta been the WORST date ever because we didnt really kick it as much as a date should have....but what do you expect? im not looking...im just being a shitty ass date! tee-hee.

anyways....it was fun. i danced with all three of them...got sandwiched by a LOT of my guy friends....and saw a lot of my friends...err...used to be friends?

when we were standing in line i saw meow...and my heart was going crazy! exactly like how it did when i LAST seen him. i told gino...he was like...WHY!? and i was like...i sill like him...because i do. and its natural to get all nervous when you see someone you like right?

at first...even though he didnt say hi to me and acted like i didnt exist (which amazingly...i didnt care AS much) i was being myself. but i did tell gino not to leave me because i just wouldnt know how id feel if he wasnt there by my side helping me with coping about the situation

during the club though...me and coolest was there and he saw meow grinding with this one girl and he turned me around and made me watch...man was THAT torture! my heart just sunk and i wanted to run...but it made me realize...meow doesnt care about me and hes not thinking about me like how i do with him. so he doesnt have a big heart like me and hes certainly NOT a hopeless romantic...and last night was proof of it.

and as hurt and disappointed as i was...im kinda okay with it...i mean...im STILL alive. so even though i DO still like him...ima continue being a bad date...still care for meow (though the feeling isnt mutual)...but im going to work on ME for now.

i liked how i saw everyone though...it was grand...even seeing jlyn! ive missed her a lot...i actually wanted to talk to her more but...i didnt want to make what is left of our friendship disappear because i tend to make things worse when i try to fix it. hopefully whatever is making her not like to be around me blows over once school starts up again. HOPEFULLY!