So. At like 11 tonight (last night?), Sven texts me. We have just seen each other for the first time in a very long time, and he's super excited. Before I got on the bus today, he kissed my forehead and told me he had missed me a whole lot. Ok...I missed him too. I kinda like him. Well, more then kinda. I do like him. He's sweet, got personality, is funny, speaks german (so crazy brownie points there) and he likes me, too.

So he texted me. And it was about what we were doing with our futures. He's a senior this year, so he has college and a real future/career after high school to think about. I'm only a sophomore, so I'm spared from that for another year or so. But anyway. Long story pretty short, he asked me to be his gf. Not even like asked me out, but just "will you be mine?" type thing.

Yep. So we're now "dating", as of four hours ago. Ah, but here is something! I am a kiss virgin. He, he is not. So...I shall have my first kiss tomorrow. Excitement and nervousness, much? I am going to be obsessively brushing my teeth....

But.

Here is a flaw, one that I know about and considered before answering.

He kissed my good friend Jessica (not Desi's gf, another Jessica) in german last year.
While I was in Wa, which is fine, I never expected him to like wait for me or something.

But this begs the question: Does he still have feelings for Jessica, and also...how long has he been harboring feelings for me? I know he was texting me that he loved me while I was in Wa, but...I mean, he told me that again today (yesterday?) and he really meant it. And all I can do is say the words, I guess, but there is no real feeling behind them. Yeah, I like him. A lot, even. Love him? I said it. But I don't know if I do.

So. Problem 1: if he is telling me he loved me while I was 2500 miles away, while kissing Jessica (who doesn't like him and shows it)...what the hell does that mean?

Problem 2: Our feelings about each other differ, obviously. I like him. I don't love him, except as a good friend. He "really does love [me] " according to a text he sent tonight (last night?)

Problem 3: He is a senior. I am a sophomore. There's only two years there and it's not bad or anything, but he will be leaving this Cy-Fair this year, and I am staying for another two. I seriously doubt my commitment, since he is going to Austin, I believe, after he graduates. I am not going to be able to stay with him while he is away, I just...do not think I can do that. No. I'm not that mature or "in love" with him.

Problem 4:...Sara, ex-girlfriend. Enough said.

Problem 5: MY ex Kevin is attending Fair for two class periods in the morning for a Cisco class. We kinda get along, but not well. And he has had problems in the past about me not liking him, and I'm kinda concerned. Both he and Sven are seniors. Both he and Sven have told me they loved me. I see clashing in the future, especially since Kevin has taken to calling me more and more frequently, as he has no friends, and has made several passing comments about us dating again.

Problem 6: TimZ. He's been real nice to me lately, and he's pretty cool, but I don't know how he'll react about me "dating" his best friend.

Um...that's all I can think of right now. So you see, as I am stoked about "dating" Sven...I have reserves and qualms. Hopefully I'm just jittery. I do not ever want to end up hurting him.