title: distinctions
fandom: tvxq, super junior, bae seulgi
rating: PG-13
pairings: heechul/yunho, yunho/seulgi, yunho/junsu
word count: 831

For Jung YunHo, love isn't the problem - the problem is who, when, how. He never anticipated how difficult it would be to decide, to define.

'Do you love me?'

He can say with certainty that he does. To JunSu, as someone he would protect with his life; to HeeChul, as someone he would trust with his life; to SeulGi, as someone he had already given his life.

But the problem with certainty on all sides, is that it makes it difficult to choose.

'No, it's not possible. If a friend and my sister were to date, and they got into a fight, how would I know which side to choose?'

Love means loyalty, and the hardest part about having friends who don't always agree with each other is deciding which one to side with. Some things YunHo sees only in black-and-white. But more often than not, this only brings more grey into his world.

'I love you, you know.'

'I love you, too.'

But loving HeeChul was different from loving JunSu. Sleeping with HeeChul had always been different from sleeping with JunSu. With HeeChul it was a rushed, breathless tumble in the sheets, perhaps a final landing on the floor, a change of position in some other part of the elder's apartment later on. With JunSu, it was concealed whispering and giggling under the sheets, fingers in each other's mouths to dampen the sound of their moaning, legs twisting slowly together as the night gradually went on.

Then he met SeulGi, and that was something unique in and of itself.

'How do you love me?'

As it is with most people, he had recognized early on a difference in the way his parents loved him and his sister, and the way they loved each other. And YunHo was a romantic. He believed in soulmates, in that one other person out there, meant just for you and you alone. He didn't realize that one was sometimes three. That after HeeChul there could be JunSu, that after JunSu there could be SeulGi. That sometimes it wasn't a matter of 'after' so much as 'even with.'

'I want to marry her.'

'Then marry her.'

...

'You know, I...'

'We know. Trust us. We know.'

He had made his decision. It was one of the few times in his life that he was uncertain, going into something as big as this.