OMG I finally got through my flist and my email and ugh. Going a weekend without the internet is crazy! I spent all weekend in Boston (Jason Mraz, Delta Sigma Pi, trapeze) and by the time I got home I was ready to drop. I actually fell asleep last night still half dressed and in a contorted position, lights and TV on, only to wake up at 11 to realize I'd missed Brothers & Sisters, again at 4AM with a stiff neck and sore throat, and at 6AM to realize I was so not in any shape to be at work at 9. I'm at work now, but still feeling pretty meh. Hopefully with a good night's sleep tonight I can feel back to my normal self.

Trapeze went better this week than last. I didn't wind up in tears at any point, but my shoulders are still killing me from falling out of my straddle whip. Maybe the massage I was supposed to have on Thursday (but had to reschedule because I got still at work until 8:15pm) would've helped them. I guess I'll find out on Saturday, assuming I don't have to reschedule again. My swing still struggles, but maybe struggles a little less each week. Now my goal is to get my back-end split into some kind of shape for the show. It's so infuriating that I struggle so much with this trick because my set split is just fine! (Those are just random youtube videos, btw, not me. Just thought I'd give you a point of reference so you'd know what I was talking about.) I did manage one decent catch of it, but it's still ugly. I really need to make a commitment to stretching this week. Theresa says it will help my split and Johann says stretching will help my shoulders. Last week I was just super exhausted from life, but this week I need to recommit to physical fitness.

Oh, but OMG huge victory of the day, I took off without a belt hold!! Like all day! Once I didn't even have a tummy hold! I didn't even need to be brave and ask to not have one (though I was totally going to!) Kaz just kind of didn't hold on. I was like, "OMG, what are you doing?! Where's my belt hold?! ACCKKK!" And he was just like, "You're okay." It was so scary, but I'm glad I did it! My take off is crap again now, but I'll get better. Hopefully we'll be back on rig 1 again next week, not a fan of rig 2. But I am so lucky to have amazing teachers who have faith in me even when I don't. And who keep giving me wonderful pointers and advice, now I just need to listen to it!

Also I am lucky to have super awesome wonderful amazing lovely girls in my class who I heart to death. Aren't we adorable?