Title: The Red Roses are... Regretting
Author: warumono_girl
Band/Pairing: KaixRuki (Gazette)
Theme: 25.Regret(30emotions)
Rating: PG
Warnings: none.
Word Count :743
Summary: Feelings shouldn't be kept locked on our hearts, by more than one reason.
Anxious >> Surprised >> Bewildered >> in Love >> Calm >> Excited>> Lustful >> Pitying >> Distressed >> Restless >> Disappointed >> Grateful >>Envious >> Enraged>>Indignated >> Fearful >> Grieving >> Apathy >> Desperate>> Longing >> Compassionated >> Shameful>> Confident >> Rapture >> Malice >> Hatred >> Melancholic >> Amused >> Regretting>> Happy





25. Regret
Ruki’s POV

In the moment we walked into practice I could feel a little amount of guilty already setting over me. The ride to the studio was a quiet one. You were clearly worried over our friends reaction, but the only thing that settled on my mind were Reita. I’ve just been too into yours and my problems that I’ve just putted Rei out of the equation. From the past days we’ve spoke less than twice, and I’ve been turning down his calls with no further explanation. I couldn’t suppress the feeling that I should have talked to him, not only because of all that happened, but just because he was always there for me. I squeeze your hand tight, trying to find a little reassurance over my thoughts. You spared me a glance before walking with me into the room, already expecting them to look funny at us or they eyes to grow bigger than they head. I know better. Don’t know really why, but the reactions we got were the reaction I was expecting. Even Aoi’s attempt to seem mad seemed to me more a joke than it actually was. I feel calmer then, and happy. I was before looking in his eyes.

Reita keep silent, his eyes locked onto mine, like asking me ‘what the hell’. Shit. At that moment I knew very well how he felt. I’ve betrayed him, not like a lover nor like some villain, but I’ve betrayed all the times that he hold me and said that everything would be fine, every single time that he putted me to sleep and granted me with a little more hope. I was too coward to tell him that I’ve find you, and right then I knew that’s were all that he wanted. To me one day wake up from my self-induced nightmare and say to him that I’ve found me light again. Still, I was too coward to do that. I’ve unconsciously get scared of him letting me go, and them I just shut him away of my own happiness. I felt so tiny the moment our gazes locked and I could read him like I’ve always done, and see that how much hurt he was from my selfishness.
I let a sigh escape me, feeling your eyes settle in my form, as if asking me what Reita’s problems were. I just give you a look to let you know that this problem was mine, and mine alone, and that made you smile again. I knew that no one could talk to him besides me. Was me the one that he wanted to hear, and no one else.

I made my way to him once everyone was eating, and sit by his side, letting my eyes focus on his. I gently put my hand on his leg and squeezed it lightly, being answered by an arm passing over my shoulders. The next minute I felt myself being dragged on a warm embrace, his strong arm enlacing me in a protective way, and you deep voice mumbling the one million dollars words at my ears.
- I’m happy you’ve finally realized were your light lay.

He let go of me and gave me a bright smile, and on that same minute I knew he was too much of a good friend, I knew that I was forgiven for my selfishness and my careless doings. I did nothing more to smile back and lat the last tear roll down my cheeks. I’ve never wanted this much to redo something, a tiny and so important thing. I knew I should have spared his just 3 words. “I’ve found it”. That’s all I needed to say every time he had called me for the last days, and still I didn’t. I can only be happy that he is so lovable to understand me this well. Well enough to forgive me.
I felt Uruha pulling me down with him on the couch, clearly interested on my ‘dirty tales of Kai’s bedroom’ and I just rolled my eyes at him. Things would be fine from now on. Looking one last time to Reita before telling Uruha his so y tales, I saw him smiling at me and sitting down too. Probably not interested at all in any thing that Uruha manages to tear from me, but always by my side, how it have always been. That’s is our life going back to it’s pace.




Title: The Red Roses are... Happy
Author: warumono_girl
Band/Pairing: KaixRuki (Gazette)
Theme: 27.Happyness(30emotions)
Rating: PG
Warnings: none.
Word Count :186
Summary: Feelings shouldn't be kept locked on our hearts, by more than one reason.
Anxious >> Surprised >> Bewildered >> in Love >> Calm >> Excited>> Lustful >> Pitying >> Distressed >> Restless >> Disappointed >> Grateful >>Envious >> Enraged>>Indignated >> Fearful >> Grieving >> Apathy >> Desperate>> Longing >> Compassionated >> Shameful>> Confident >> Rapture >> Malice >> Hatred >> Melancholic >> Amused >> Regretting>> Happy






27. Happiness

They lay embraced in the bed, naked skin on naked skin. The white fabric of the covers polled around they waist doing nothing to hide they beauty. Kai looked down at his lover, looking for his eyes behind the damp bangs of new auburn hair.
- I guess I know now what people say about happy endings.
Kai took some minutes to ponder his lover words, making face at them and arguing back.

- happy endings ? I thought you didn’t believe in them Ru.
- Well, I guess I was wrong weren’t I ?
- Who knows. All I know is that it’s no ending here, you know.
- Yeah, I guess you’re right.

Kai smiled at his tiny lover, squeezing him into his arms and joining they lips together. The kiss was slow and tender, an attempt to conceal all the feelings that toke so much to be shining that bright. He surely didn’t know about happy ending, but at hearing the steady pace of his lovers breathing against his skin he guessed that he would learn a lot about happy living.
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Can’t believe that I’ve finished. God. I’m so happy and so sad right now. And I’m so sorry for the lame and short last chapter u.u”. I guess that every single feeling they may have there were already explicated on each others POV, so it was just a fluff epilogue.
I’ve done it. 30 kaixruki Ficlets. I still can’t believe.
I have to thank drako_malfoy &bubbalooee9the most over it. They were the ones that keep me going. So, sankiuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu !
^.^

Hey, as I promised I’ve done the ‘kiss me?’ Avatar series. They’re 15 in the total. I’ll post 3 of them here and the other can be found at the link : http://valuexofxpain.livejournal.com/3007.html




Feel free to use :p