Title: The Red Roses are... Compassionated
Author: warumono_girl
Band/Pairing: KaixRuki (Gazette)
Theme: 6. Compassion (30emotions)
Rating: PG
Warnings: none.
Word Count : 729
Summary: Feelings shouldn't be kept locked on our hearts, by more than one reason.
Anxious >> Surprised >> Bewildered >> in Love >> Calm >> Excited>> Lustful >> Pitying >> Distressed >> Restless >> Disappointed >> Grateful >>Envious >> Enraged>>Indignated >> Fearful >> Grieving >> Apathy >> Desperate>> Longing >> Compassionated >> Shameful

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6. Compassion
Kai’s POV


I manage to enter your apartment with my spare keys, and then I realize that everything still the same as yesterday, things lying on the floor, mess everywhere. I feel a frown rise on my face, letting the worst though enter my mind. I almost panicked. I got inside quietly, leaving my shoes at the door and making my way towards the living room. Seeing that no one was there, I realized that you’re probably asleep this time on the morning. Slowly making my way towards you bedroom, I careful grab the doorknob, and an utter uncertain feeling crept over me. I feared to see the same vision of yesterday, I remember the way my things were scattered over your bedroom, and the events and aches of the last day rose.

Trying to push them aside, I let myself in the room. I searched for your form on the bed, and was shocked to see it empty. I made my way into the room, the worry rising quickly. I looked around trying to spot you, hearing nothing but silence. I’ve started to make my way toward the bathroom on your room, just to be granted with a heart breaking sight. You were sitting by the bed, the covers around you like a cocoon, your head on the bed, your arms hugging you tight.

I sit in front of you, noticing your tear stained cheeks. I wanted so badly to just hold you tight, but I didn’t dare to do so. I brushed away some strands of your hair that seem to love to fall down your face, allowing me to take a full look at your peaceful sleeping face. I would do anything to see this kind of expression on you when you’re awake. Realizing that you’ll probably wake up aching for the awkward position you were sleeping in, I softly picked you up, taking extremely care to not wake you up, and slowly putting you in your bed. I stayed there, sitting beside you for a moment, realizing that now, seeing you better I should just go, and come over when you wake up. I don’t need you freaking out by founding me here when your eyelids flutter open.

On the moment I made a move to get up of the bed I feel something tugging me back, forcing me to not raise. Looking at your sleeping face I let a slight doubt look take my face, just moments latter realizing the tight grip you holds at the hem of my shirt. Making sure you still asleep, I let a smile tug at my lips, while slowly removing your fingers, just to be startled with a soft sob coming from you.

- Please, don’t leave again…</>

I felt my breath stopping and my muscles tensing, looking at you, seeing how your eyes were slight open and already moist with tears. I wanted to say that I would never leave if you didn’t wanted me to, but on the next minute, my body seemed to have gotten it faster than my mind, and I realized that I was laid down besides you, hugging you as tight as I could, feeling you soak my shirt with tears. I let my hands leave soothing circles on you backs, hearing to your sobs dying, and the deadly grips on my shirt lessen. I toke some distance from you, needing so bad to look at your eyes to assure you that you would never be alone. Looking to your red abused lips, and puffy eyes, all I could manage was a warm smile and a soft caress on your cheek.

I felt you lend in the touch almost like a cat would do, and that made it. I kissed you deep and passionate, trying hard to pour all my feeling in that hushed gesture, and almost expecting you to jerk away from me, knowing how much you felt uncomfortable with intimate contacts ever since he stepped out of your life.

What surprised me though was the way you pushed your body closer, and the fierce passion that you answered my kiss, nipping at my bottom lip asking for entrance. I was really shocked then, since I never expected you to be this comfortable with me, and just then realizing how much yesterday have affected you a lot more than me perhaps.











Title: The Red Roses are... Shameful
Author: warumono_girl
Band/Pairing: KaixRuki (Gazette)
Theme: 28.Shame (30emotions)
Rating: PG
Warnings: none.
Word Count : 651
Summary: Feelings shouldn't be kept locked on our hearts, by more than one reason.
Anxious >> Surprised >> Bewildered >> in Love >> Calm >> Excited>> Lustful >> Pitying >> Distressed >> Restless >> Disappointed >> Grateful >>Envious >> Enraged>>Indignated >> Fearful >> Grieving >> Apathy >> Desperate>> Longing >> Compassionated >> Shameful

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28. Shame
Ruki's POV


I was never that happy on my life than the moment I saw your face when I woke up, when I saw the look of affection in you eyes. I didn't want anything more than you. I was scared that you would leave me, I couldn’t let you go, no matter how selfish that was, I tugged so hard at your shirt, making sure you would not escape me.

When I felt you embracing me I couldn’t control my tears anymore. You’re too perfect for me and I know that. I clung to you like my life depended on it, not even caring if I was soaking your shirt with my tears, I just wanted to feel you near. When you gently pushed me away, I really didn’t know what to expect, but surely I didn’t expect that amazing smile from you, a smile that told me that you weren’t going anywhere away from me, that you loved me no matter what.

The moment you hand grazed my face, I unconsciously lend at the touch, wanting, needing to feel you, anything that I could grasp. Nothing could have made my heart flutter more than when I felt you lips on mine again, just like that night days ago, but now I wasn’t as shocked, and Made sure to keep every second of it safely stored on my mind, to feel every single inch of your lips, of your hands entwining themselves on my hair. It was so different from his kisses. Nothing harsh or demanding, just softly and lovely, like you were pouring your entire soul to me. I almost cried again, but manage to brush the tears out of my eyes and quickly pushed myself near you, wanting to feel you so badly, every touch so different than his, and so damn intoxicating, needing to feel your lips, your hands and everything that could assure me that you're not leaving me for my stupidities.

Nothing could have been worst then, than to see you face when you've stripped me of my shirt. I knew you'll probably get disgusted at me. I couldn't come to look at you eyes, didn't wanted to see the look in there, the look that would say how much of a fool I was to think that you could love someone like me, so low and degraded.

I've already started trying to cover myself up again when I feel your hands holding mine on a thigh grip, putting them away of my own body and clothes so that you could press you finger slighter to my skin, tracing the scars that would never leave me alone. I hear you mumble something, but I'm too ashamed to really comprehend anything, but the moment you repeat it I can barely breath.

- So pretty...

I wish you didn't have to lie to me. I know very well that nothing in me is truly pretty. No matter what others may say, I know how tainted my skin, my body is. He had made sure that I understand that, and no one could take his truly words from my mind, not even you, as much as I want to believe.

Mere seconds passed until you remove you fingers, and as carefully as before, pressed your velvet lips on my scarred skin, placing softy kisses all along. God. I couldn't suppress the tears that stroked down my face. For the first time his words started to fade, and yours seemed truer than anything. I knew, on that moment, that you would never lie to me, and I couldn't hold the moan that formed on my throat, a moan not only because of the pleasure yours soft lips inflicted to me but from the sweet feeling that flowed into my heart. And then I left the tears flow freely, only feeling you and wishing you would never go away.

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*I’m sick again. u.u” - I really hate summer here on my city. It makes me sick all the time.

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