this school year hasn't changed me,
but shown me the power to open my eyes and see myself for who i am on the inside.
i am weak.
i am rubber in the hands of the few people i care about.
i am stubborn to the point of exhaustion in my romantic relationships.
i understand that i don't understand myself... and that i won't any time soon.
i know that doing what feels good in the moment isn't smart for the long haul, but i don't really plan on living that long.
i try to put a wall up when i feel someone could be threatening my refusal to love and to feel.
when i get depressed, i push away the few people i care about.
my sexuality (and all sexuality) is almost non-existant - i have the potential to love anyone, no matter what bits they have... however, 97% of the time, i'd rather be with somebody with the same bits as myself.
i drink because it makes me happy and numb.
i smoke because i like the taste.
i drug it up because it makes me happy and numb.
i can't change myself, but if i work really hard, i might eventually be able to change my actions.
nobody else can convince me of what's right for me unless i deeply love them.
i like sex.
i like to blow up condoms and draw faces on them with sharpies.
my friends mean the world to me.
age really is just a number.
i can't change the way racists and homophobes and sexists and such think, but i can accept they are human and therefore have faults and that everyones' logic is relevant to their own mind.
i use an appropriate amount of product in my hair, contrary to what many, many people say.
i have lost any passion i ever had for playing the tromboner... mr. bohn killed that.
i love westmount's people, but not westmount's program.
i am a big perfectionist.
i am wildly imperfect.
i am (yes, i am) overweight.
i love music, be it rock, metal, screamo, jazz, or techno.
i love playing bass.
i love toronto.
i love sitting in downtown alleyways at 3am, just writing songs about everything.
i hate hamilton.
i hate my tiny-ass house.
i don't like love at all.
i don't care for the government.
i like the idea of communism and anarchism.
i like girls.
i like being hairless.
i like having pink hair.
live music is tops.
i love outrageous, obnoxious fashion and couture.
i love hair - styling it, cutting it, dying it.
i do not wear too many accessories.
the clothes i cut myself are the cutest of them all.
i really don't know too much about myself....
but that's okay.