I don't even know the words to say.  There aren't any.  Betrayal.  Disloyal.  Lies.  Wait - there are indeed words.  And I've heard them and spoken them, before.  One too many times, before.  Before.  Before.  Before.

She knew too.  And she fell right in line with all the rest.  Is there no one trustworthy in this day?  Is there no one with standards and morals.  Is temptation and attention worth it all.  My heart is bleeding yet one more time.  This time all over me.  I trusted.  I believed.  Stupid stupid girl I am.  I wonder if she's been to see her.  I wonder if she has courted her the same way she tempted me.  I wonder if she is telling her and selling her the same sighs and lies.  And I wonder how long.  How long the texting, the emailing, the pm'ing... how long.  Why.  That is always the question in my heart, why.  It must be me.  I trusted blindly this time.  I believed every word.  I questioned nothing.  She consistently made proud that we were both so trustworthy.  Betrayal was not in our nature.  She sang this too often and too loudly.  I should have heard the underlying sounds, the unsaid words.  I should have listened with my heart.  

I am just crushed at knowing this now.  Just fucking little, insignificant, and crushed.  I don't even want to know more.  I am physically sick in my body knowing what I know now.  What did this person have to gain.  Why were these words spoken.  Why did I have to know now.  I had no need to know.  Why.

Enough.