*Sigh*

Well, here I sit at work with nothing to really do. My laptop that I rely on to get me through these boring ass days has died on me. I went to go get a new power cord which I thought was the problem, $90 I don't have, get it to work, and it doesn't fix it. That's my luck for ya, find a solution to the problem and it doesn't work. Now I probably have to spend a few hours on the phone with some douche in India trying to just diagnose the problem. More than likely he won't be able to and I'll just have to junk the son of a bitch.

Again something that I rely on turns its back on me. I know it just broke and I'm probably making too much of it, but that is just my luck. I get something nice, and then something else in my life goes to shit.

I just ate quite a disgusting tasting TV dinner. Well the beef in it wasn't bad, but the potatoes were dry and grainy, and the peas were basically one pea just lumped together. Then again, I have not had a home cooked meal all week. I've been living off of pizza rolls and Banquet TV dinners. I stopped and asked myself today while buying it, if this is the most life has in store for me. am I doomed to be spended every night sitting in front of the TV waiting for my body to get tired enough to let me sleep eating a ready made dinner becasue I have no time to cook for me.

I know a morticain, or psychologist, is supposed to make quite a bit of money, but that doesn't include the fact that I may not get a job in my field. I may end up like my boss Jeff, and some of the other poeple I work with and stay at Meijer my whole life. With the way things do go for me this is the way it is going to end up being. Fuck, I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. Slowly dying at a meaningless job force feeding myself some of the unhealthiest food that I can get my hands on. Give me the bullet now please.

Also I'm trying to find a way to get my story out there. I want as many people as possible to have a chance to learn from my mistakes and if I can save a few people from making the mistakes and failures that I have, than maybe this won't have been in vain.

Anyway, you all have something more important to do. Later.