Waaaaah

tiqs is all about tiredness. maybe i am lucky that i don't really live near anyone, so i can sleep in the bus without a heck for the world. I do wish that i have a shoulder to lean on though, maybe even Cheryl's short shoulder will do. HAHAHA. Bleagh.

Hurrr, so in the mood to whine.

When I think about the midterm that is coming this saturday, i cringe, cos i don't know what to expect. I am studying at a stable rate, but that's how it is. I can study and study and study and still not do as well as i expect.

Oh well, it happens.

I think i am so sluggish now cos I am so drowning in my deadlines. This sem, I am not even using a proper notebook or diary to keep up with my deadlines. I dunno why. I just don't feel like it.

Okay, one good birthday present would be a nice organizer that is easy to bring around, stylish and attracts me to write inside it.

Haha, so tak malu can. But okay whattt, my birthday is at the end of the year there, perfect time to get me an organizer. Hahaha.

Hmm, I've been hanging round with the soccer ppl more these days. Definitely fun, as long as we don't talk about soccer and me.

Tomorrow is the friendly against U-16.

I think i have lost that bit of faith i have in myself when it comes to the game. I don't see myself being able to improve or to even be of standard. Yes, it's about myself again. I am selfish that way.

I think, I am also scared. It would take me courage to take those boots out, to bring myself to a field (synthetic or natural), and to bring my foot in contact with the ball.

I think I just lost it.

Sigh, I never thought I'd be this disappointed. Or rather, I never realised that i am this disappointed.

Okay, i think i need sleep. Or rather, I need to study.

As a last thought, what do you really see in a person's smile?