So I'm eveloping this habit of watching the Oprah Show 3 times a week. It's at 8am CST, so 3 hours before my first class I enjoy this kind of pick me up and wake me up show. You feel alittle cheesy and ultra female, but you look at yourself and remember what you are living for.

I've been hungry the last 5 days, more than usual. I will admit I gained 2lbs, but easy come easy go, therefore I can loose. Plus, it doesn't show yet because it is subtle weight. I have neglected working out already Monday & Wednesday. What have I been doing? Well, going downtown, trying to vote early and job hunting. I think it's "that time of the month" if you catch my drift; I always get hungry before my period rather than during. I've been working so hard these past 5 months losing 12lbs that 2lbs of suprficial weight will go easily with the mentality I have always had. If you want to know why I need to lose weight, it's not because I was fat, I've never been fat, but I had to gain weight by doctor's orders; you can read about it here: http://sjevtic120.livejournal.com/10682.html .

Oprah was interviewing some "The Biggest Loser" contestants since their run on the show, how they have handled their weight. I never had to lose weight before, I was on three athlete teams in high school, always active in my young years, never ate like a hog, but I never had to worry about eating carefully. So it was new to me, I was not fat at 168/169lbs. At 5"10 it's healthy but needs to be tamed. My reason for reaching that was medical, and eventually I realized that emotionally I had gotten to a new place. I was physically different and my image of myself was different. Food satisfied me, but acivity, love, and accomplishment fills me up more. So I knw whatto do and I've been slow and steady loosing weight. One trick from Oprah I learned was to eat how many emotions you can handle; like for me it's between 1200-1400 calories. I hate writting about this, I'm making myself vulnerable, but it takes strength to show a part of yourself. I am proud of myself and I love myself, I've never had low self-esteem, just off days I guess. I just know that wathing Oprah reminded me of who I am, what I am capable of, and hw beautifl I am no matter if I'm a size 2 or 8 (U.S. measurements).

Oprah is a crock in a way, but you can't help feel better and more reflective. Enjoy your day. I'll see you tomorrow. I'm so sorry I havenglected writting. I am just busy right now. Thanks for reading, to whom that do, you're a treasure.
10/27-The Pumpkin Carving.
Read the post & you'll see my pumpkin.