I miss the simpler times in life.  The times where life was easy and a little predictable.  No knowledge of heartache or betrayal.  Just innocence and a life devoid of worries.  In elementary school, all had to worry about was what was for lunch.  In middle school, that' when all this shit started.  Puberty hit, and my self-confidence got shot to shit.  All this stress of impressing and being cute and all that just really fucked me up.  I wish life were simple again.  I wish I knew nothing of this evil, evil world.  I wish I didn't know what heartache or jealousy was.

I miss being in high school.  Sure, there was endless drama, but it was sooo much easier.  Get up, go 20 minutes away from home for about 7 hours, go home, and then let mom take care of the rest.  Now, it's hard to depend on myself for anything cause I have no idea what I'm doing.

I wish to return to the easier times, if those even existed in my life.  It's all too hard and too depressing at the moment and I don't think I can take much more of this....

I'm slowly reverting back to my old self.  That's my biggest fear.  Get this demon out of me, please....