just like the song by demi lovato, i have found who i am.
maybe not exactly who i am, but something close to it.
i found out that no one's perfect, not everyone can be
happy all the time, or look the way they want. i think this
past week and almost losing trey made me realize so
much. how much i care for him, how lost i would really
be without my best friend.

i'm off to the doctor's today to have my weight checked [:
later darlings <3
 

EDIT,

just got back from the doctor's a little bit ago. they gave me
the last of my shots and i lost one pound (which isn't good)
my doctor wants me to see a counslor because i can't take
anxiety pills forever and i need to get rid of the  "problems"
that are the ones making me take the pills. i literally broke
down crying because i already went through counsling once
and i was definitely not doing that again. i told her that i
didn't want to see a counsler, i'm fine. she just laughed
saying that if i was fine, i wouldn't be there. but she wasn't
going to make me go to counsling; instead she wanted to
know if she could bribe me in any way and i told her no.
you better believe i'm going to keep saying no, too.