I am not very young
that I know very well myself
But I really do not have the interest to study
not Engineering, at least
but i owe my mother too much
to drop out at this point will cause an upstir.
which I dearly want to avoid.

what if my results really screw up?
will I go to work?
what can I do?
what job can I take up?
these are all questions that even me myself cannot answer.

at this point
can i transfer to another course still?
is it possible for me to apply and be in NIE as a teacher trainee?
what are other options still open to me?

What I can do now? I do not know.
I have no interest in my lecture and tutorials..
I do not know what and how to study at this point of time.
All I am thinking of is my CCAs
and shopping this weekend or even later
what food I want to eat
my body, the sports I am engaging in
what I want to do on tonights roadrun?
what shall we do at gym?
a million other things that..
Can wait...

How?

I am thinking of all these rubbish (as i consider them)
while I am sitting right here
in LKC
listening (juz listening) to the lecturer
but blogging instead..
oh no...