Hello to all my LJ friends! I got about 3 E-mails about birthday notices so HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOUTOUTS TOO Kirschytaru, Crissagrym, My sister Angelica, and I think there's one more LJ person I'm missig whoever it is stepup and i'm sorry haha :)


I also wanted to thanks Druises_pet and Alipay for their replies to my comments on their pages,
this is kind of an untraditional answer but I didn't want my post to be that short
and I dont have much time to look for their topics again because of this amazingly hot girl i've been talkig too
irl and failing midterms and whatnot.

So on that note I'm gonna go Klien on you all, you've been warned
/EMOACTIVATED....

I used to do really well in school, easy 100's on test and midterms...
This semster, i dont know I got a 79 on my polisci midterm,
I honostly would have gotten a 100 if I studied but I tried to take the easy way out of it, and I did better than most
of the class (it will porbably be curved as well so thats a solid B, B+ which is good)...

But I just have trouble studying.
Most of you probably wont understand this,
And I'm glad you wont, I hope you never do and never have too...
But whenever I'm alone and have some quiet, I can't help but think about the fact that I shouldn't be alive right now,
and It just eats me up inside. I Keep thinking of this girl, it was Michele or Melissa I can't remenber (i'm sorry love RIP.)...
She inspired me, she was finishing her treatments as I was just into mine;
I looked up to her with hopes I'd be better someday soon too,
She told me how she couldn't wait to get back home to South Carolina to see her boyfriend and give him
a big hug and kiss...
She never made it down there.
She died a few short weeks later from a 108 degree temperature she ran,
She didn't wanna go back to the hospital so she blew it off at first,
and by the time she ralized it was bad it was too late.
She beat Cancer to die to a side effect of the chemo which could have been prevented.
It makes me think of the day I had a reaction to my treatment, I almost fell asleep on the couch shakeing,
If my mom hadn't checked on me b/c she noticed I didn't finish my sandwhich (and I love to eat) I'd be dead right now,
not sitting here posting this story no one will read, but it feels good to get it out.
Because sometimes it just feels like, not that no one cares.. because I know I got a lot of people out here pulling for me,
but its just overwhelming.









/KLIENOFF.


 

To anyone who got through this I commend you, please comment so I know who really reads this LJ (just wondering), thanks, and happy halloween, please take 1 candy from the bucket only :)