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Ianto saw more of Lisa since the night they had slept together – well since the three of them had. He was lonely and accepted her invitations out for dinner and drinks. He started to see her regularly for a couple of weeks – Jack unable to visit – too many things falling through the rift. He found himself in bed with her after one of their evenings out, enjoyed her company and the sex. He wanted someone in his life right now who was in closer proximity to him. It had been four weeks since he had last seen Jack and he decided he would date Lisa now. He felt guilty about Jack, hoping he would understand that. They could remain friends perhaps.
When Jack arrived for his visit, he told him right away. He saw the look he had not seen in months appear again – could see that Jack was upset with his decision – though he accepted it.
Jack told Ianto he was happy for him – that he found someone he cared about – not telling Ianto the feelings he had for him – he had held them since Ianto reentered his life – though he had realized what they were too late – that he was in love with him. He was not surprised that Ianto told him another was in his life – Ianto’s calls had been less passionate lately – rushed – he had expected this all along when Ianto’s decision was to move to London.
Jack hoped they could remain friends – told the young man to call if he ever needed help or someone to talk to.
He asked if Ianto wanted to go for drinks at least – since he had driven there and wanted to spend some time with him – in a way wishing this had been done over the phone – he had been looking forward to the time he spent with Ianto – the time in his lover’s arms. They went for drinks and then back to Ianto’s flat to talk – sitting away from each other awkwardly now.
When Jack left, he gave his ex-lover a soft kiss, telling him to keep in touch. He cared about him and would be available if he needed a friend.
He drove back to Cardiff, not wanting to remain the night in London. He was upset and did not want Ianto to know that. He had broken the one rule he set for himself and had fallen in love with the young man. He wished he had never taken him to London now. But he may have met someone else in Cardiff. He was fucked it seemed when it came to love – unlucky – always making the wrong choices – opening his heart when he should not – but Ianto had been very easy to fall in love with.
He focused his mind on work – heard nothing from Ianto and had not expected to. He missed him and felt a void in his life. No matter who he found to fuck it was not filled – the sex meaningless beyond providing pleasure – he was lonely for the first time in years. Until Ianto he had been able to distract himself from feeling this way.
Ianto felt guilty after Jack had left – he had started to care about Lisa and was sad that he had hurt his lover.
He found, though, that once they began their relationship Lisa was not the easiest to get along with – he realized he had made a mistake – wished he had remained with Jack. She had not been this way while they had casually dated. Now she was moody, abusive as his llystad had been, and he was bruised once again most of the time. She made him cut off all communication with Jack – he was not allowed to remain friends with his ex-lover – the same with those he had drinks with after work – making sure he only had her in his life – he was isolated and only had her.
They broke up several times – soon back together because Lisa wanted him as hers – Ianto lonely with no one in his life and did not like that feeling either – he knew that she viewed him only as a prize – her little boy toy was what he was now called around Torchwood – he had sympathetic looks aimed his way quite often when he went to work bruised – everyone knew who had done it – there had been few eager to join Lisa in bed – all knew how violent she was – but none had warned Ianto about it – amused for a while by the game Lisa was playing – trying to win him over from the Captain – wondering if she would be able to succeed. Some were surprised when she won – but when Lisa wanted something she got it.
Ianto was now unhappy with his job, relationship, London, wished he had gone to Cardiff. But he had fucked that chance up by not talking to Jack anymore – something he regretted – realizing that he had liked the man a lot – misunderstood the feelings he had for Jack when overcome by loneliness – that he had been in love with him – but felt it was too late to do anything about his feelings – certain that Jack did not share them – that Jack would no longer want him after he had rejected his ex-lover.
He focused on his school work – but Lisa demanded his attention – not allowing him to do even that – his grades good when she was out of his life – bad when they were lovers again. Lisa did not care about that – that– the classes were important for the job he held – any advancement within Torchwood she wanted Ianto's full attention on her.
Then came the cybermen and Canary Wharf, Ianto was one of the few to survive the massacre.
Jack went to London to clean up, get rid of any dangerous tech that was lying around, loading it into their SUV’s to take back to Cardiff – to be destroyed there or locked up. He was surprised to find that Ianto had survived and wondered if he should see how he was doing. He still loved the young man – not sure if this was the time to look him up.
He found himself outside of Ianto’s hospital room and after several minutes knocked. He went in then despite no request to do so and found Ianto sleeping. He stood over him, ran his hand down Ianto’s cheek, finding him as lovely as he remembered – still precious. He kissed his lips softly and sat down, holding his hand.
After a couple of hours Ianto woke up, wondering who was with him. His feelings of guilt came back when he saw Jack there – that he came to see how he was. He croaked out a hello, shocked to hear how bad he sounded. He sighed as Jack ran his thumb along his hand.
Jack smiled warmly at Ianto and asked how he was feeling. He shifted his chair and ran a hand through Ianto’s hair. He did not find a smile returned – though he did not expect one – Ianto had been through a lot and was lucky to still be alive – he knew that Lisa was listed as dead and felt for him – many he had known had died over the last century – he had felt pain when he cared for them.
He asked if he wanted some water, helping him with it when he heard yes. He longed to climb in bed with him, hold him close, wished he had been here to protect him. He could help with the injuries but did not think that Ianto would accept his kiss this time.
Ianto looked up at Jack and thanked him for the water. He wished he had never met Lisa – never let her go to the party with them - that the three of them had not fucked – that he had focused on Jack – had never slept with her – never dated her – it was a big mistake and now he knew the rest of his life would be filled with unhappiness – he had lost the one he had truly cared about – realizing too late that he had fallen in love with Jack – going back to Lisa despite the fact he did not want to – despite the fact that he loved someone else. He did not think Jack would forgive him for turning away from him.
He felt a soft kiss against his lips and let out a sob – Jack joined him on the bed then – held him close – listened to him as he told about the death and carnage that had been around him – the nightmares he had been having since he arrived at the hospital. He felt Jack’s gentle caress along his back and trembled. He heard Jack talking to him softly – telling him that he would protect him – remembering this feeling from the past – surrendering to it – he wanted to feel his ex-lover’s warmth – his arms wrapped around him – he felt safe now – something he had not felt for the last two years.
Jack listened to Ianto as he talked and held him. He remembered his own past and how he had died at a battle with the Daleks – he had heard enough about the carnage the cybermen brought with them. He wished he could have protected Ianto from it. He finally asked if he wanted some help with the pain – found a confused look on Ianto’s face. He kissed him – his life force mingling once again with Ianto’s – repairing his body. He saw a stunned look on Ianto’s face – heard him ask how he could do that. Ianto remembered now that Jack had done it once before. He told him maybe one day he would tell him – he should sleep now.
He stayed in bed with Ianto despite hearing numerous times not to do that from the nurses – calmed Ianto each time he woke up screaming. He slept for a while also – when he woke he tried to think what to do now. If he should ask Ianto to come back to Cardiff with him – there was no longer a Torchwood London – it was now gone. When he felt Ianto wake up he ran a hand along his back and kissed him – happy with the kiss that was returned – but Ianto soon pulled back saying he should not do that. He told Ianto the past was over – forgotten – he still cared about him – would like to be with him – though if Ianto did not want that he would understand – he then wiped the tears in Ianto’s eyes away.
Ianto lay there stunned – heard Jack still cared about him – wanted to be with him – there was a place for him in Cardiff. He nuzzled Jack’s neck and soon found that he was telling him about the last two years with Lisa – that he had been unhappy – wanted to see his old lover again but was afraid he would be rejected – Lisa had stopped him in the beginning – his own fears later – that Jack was angry with him for their break up – told Jack what Lisa had done to him – that she wanted him to cut his friendship off with him – how she abused him – he was isolated from others while with her.
He should have been satisfied with the time he had with Jack then – but was often lonely – wanted someone to be there with him all the time – something he never had before – he had not understood the feelings awakening in him while with Jack – later recognizing it had been love – that he cared about Jack.
He thought they should take things slowly – he wanted to make sure Jack really wanted him – that he was not feeling bad about Canary Wharf – felt guilt for bringing him in London – though Jack would not have known that this would happen – he choose his place here –knowing Jack wanted him in Cardiff – though he figured that out too late also.
Jack told Ianto he needed to go for a while – there were still things to be done at Torchwood – he would return later though. Jack kissed him with hunger – he had missed his kisses – they broke apart – both breathing hard – Jack reluctant to leave but they needed to get round up all of the cyber conversion units – other alien tech – not wanting it in the wrong hands.
Ianto was examined after Jack left – his doctors wondered at how fast he was healing – told he could leave if he had somewhere to go. He called Jack’s mobile and left a message – telling him he would be at his flat – he had been released and did not want to remain any longer at the hospital.
He took a taxi to his flat and went in. He gasped in surprise when he saw who was there – Lisa Hallet – his girl friend who was supposed to be dead – but was here and now a partially converted Lisa – part cyber-woman.
He could not have Jack drop by now, he thought. He stared for a few moments at her – wishing that she had died – his life could have begun over again – he may have won Jack back in his life with time.
She grabbed him by the neck and pushed him hard against a wall – told Ianto he still belonged to her. That he would help her – she would tell him what needed to be done. She could regain her strength. Trying to entice Ianto by saying perhaps she could become human again – not a machine – they could be together again – make love again. She felt Ianto shaking and felt some satisfaction – he would be easy to use – she knew he was terrified of her already.
She kept hold of his neck and pushed him into a chair. She was soon on her knees – remembering what Ianto had enjoyed – sucking his cock – Ianto’s legs spread wide – gasping as she did so – finding the sensation different – better than it had been – screaming out as he climaxed. She smiled faintly – hoping she had him hooked now – she caressed his face softly – telling him he would need to go to Torchwood in Cardiff – they would have what was needed and he could set up a chambre for her – modified from the equipment that would soon be on its way there. She found him shaking – looking at her both terrified and with some lust. She told him to undress – she would give him more pleasure.
She took him to his room and sucked his cock again – had him writhing beneath her mouth and tongue – told him to go to his knees and soon was tongue fucking his arse – licking – biting – hearing his screams of ecstasy at each orgasm.
Once he had climaxed she told him her plan. Said she preferred him not to fuck the Captain – not really caring anymore – Ianto was there for her to use as she could – then she could begin to rebuild the cyber race – their conquest plans fulfilled – but if he would need to keep the Captain occupied elsewhere – he was easily distracted when fucking.
Ianto was not sure what to do. He felt guilty for being happy when he got word she had been one listed as dead. He thought he would have his freedom back. He did not want to use Jack for this, but knew that he would. He was afraid of Lisa, knew she could very easily kill him now if he refused, would probably hurt him, and he was melting beneath her caresses.
He groaned to himself. Things seemed so easy earlier – Jack had arrived and said he wanted him to move back to Cardiff – then Lisa had to appear also. He jumped when he heard a knock at his door – remembered that he had called Jack to say he was at his flat. Lisa told him to get the door – they needed the Captain for her to become human again.
Ianto went to the door trembling, unable to look Jack in the eye. Jack thought it had to do with Canary Wharf and that he was still in shock. He pulled Ianto closer for a hug – a frown on his face a moment able to smell someone else on Ianto – but he reminded himself that he had no claims on him and Ianto could fuck who he wanted. Perhaps he needed to relieve some stress that afternoon. Jack put his hands against Ianto’s hips and kissed him – frowning again. Ianto’s kisses earlier had been more passionate – now Ianto pulled away from him – was withdrawn – the morose look he found on his face familiar. He sighed to himself – thinking now he still did not have the young man back in his life. He dropped his hands and moved to the couch.
The two sat apart from each other. Ianto wanting to be in Jack’s arms but feeling guilty now, afraid, told that he had to use the man he was in love with. He would have been happy being in the Capten’s bed again, if Lisa had not appeared, told him to do it, wanted him to use Jack.
Jack thinking Ianto did not want him. He was afraid to ask if Ianto would come back with him but finally did – he would be heading back the next day.
Ianto told him he would like that – he still wanted to work for Torchwood. He would hire a car in the next couple of days and move his belongings there.
Jack sighed again – Ianto mentioned nothing about them as a couple – nothing about renewing their relationship. He asked if Ianto wanted for him to arrange a flat – Ianto told him that he did not need to – he could remain at the Hub temporarily while he looked around for one. Jack asked him out to dinner – Ianto refusing, saying he needed to be alone.
He got up to leave, telling Ianto he would see him soon then. Jack leaned forward to kiss him – Ianto pulled away – saw the sad look that quickly disappeared from his face – heard Jack’s sigh as he left.
Ianto watched him go, not saying anything. Afraid if he did he would confess everything about Lisa.
Lisa watched the display with anger, Ianto was not doing what she had told him to do. Once the Captain left – she grabbed him by the throat again and threw him against the wall. When he re-stood she told him they needed the Captain – he needed to seduce the man again. She saw the looks Jack had given her lover – knew it would not take much to achieve. She felt Ianto shaking as she pushed against the wall again, using her body to keep him there. She kissed him along the jaw line, purring softly. She now wondered why she choose Ianto – but as she thought about it he was one of the few to survive – he was smart – though not very good at using people – he needed her for that – easy to intimidate. She continued with her kisses until she could feel he was hard and ready to be sucked again. The modifications made on her body made it so she could not fuck him, but she still had her hands and mouth.
She took him back to the bed, sucked his cock until orgasm. She had him move on his knees, fucking his arse with her tongue, fingers, and the dildo – in the past when she could see that he missed Jack and wanted a cock up his arse they had played with it – she did not want to welcome a third into their relationship in the past – would not share. She tried to make sure she caressed him softly – though she felt like hitting him – bruising him – punish him for failing. They kissed a while then, Ianto’s hands against the flesh that was still human, caressing her. When his cock was hard again she stroked it, fucking his arse with the dildo again, Ianto screaming out at his orgasm.
She watched Ianto as he slept. She no longer felt anything for him – though she never really did – he was a prize that she stole from the Captain – he was here for her to use now – but she had been doing that all along. She knew most at Torchwood London wanted him and she was the one to win him. She had felt some satisfaction after that. She managed to get him away from Jack, using both her body and threats to do that.
As he started to have a nightmare she watched, offering no comfort, not caring that he woke screaming, wishing he would just shut up.
When he did not she began to hit him as she had done in the past. This time the modifications to her body worked in her favour and Ianto was soon bruised and bloodied. She stopped – realized she needed him – petted him – begged for forgiveness – saying she was in the grips of a nightmare also – thought he was one of those who had converted her. Ianto succumbing to her caress as he always did.
She was thankful for his llystad for what he had done to him, how he had broken Ianto for her. Glad that he had told her how he had been abused as a child and young man. She had used that against him many times during their relationship, called him names, made him feel guilty. He was easy to manipulate through violence, intimidation, and his own feelings of guilt.
She told Ianto to get cleaned up, looking at the blood on the bed with disgust. Once he returned she told him to remove the soiled sheets and get rid of them. He could get rid of his belongings tomorrow and they could be in Cardiff in a couple of days. Ianto trembled on the bed next to her, telling her that he would do what she asked.
Jack went back to his hotel room upset again. At the hospital Ianto had seemed happy that he was there – later he acted as if he did not want him to enter his flat – wanted him gone. The kiss he gave had no passion in it – felt as if he was forcing Ianto to kiss him. He sighed to himself – he would welcome Ianto back – but could see that he did not want them to have a relationship. He had not wanted him to help with the move either and last time they had a great weekend when he helped Ianto move here. He thought he would leave early the next morning and return to Cardiff. They would get rid of the dangerous tech gathered once he returned.
The next morning Lisa made sure that Ianto again succumbed to her caresses. She sucked and fucked him, glad to see him twist with ecstasy as he had in the past. She knew how to work him up. She was happy to see the bruises that covered his face and body – she reminded him they needed the Captain – he needed to have the man in his bed again – knew she would beat him again if he did not listen to what she said – obey her commands. After Ianto showered, she reminded him of what he needed to do, most of his belongings sold by the afternoon. She cared nothing about them and if they meant something to Ianto, too bad. She needed them to get to Cardiff quickly. Pain was gripping her body more with each passing hour.
They were ready to leave the next day. Ianto phoned Jack on his mobile and told him that he was on his way. He would call once there – though he would take Lisa through some tunnels first – once Jack slept he would work on a conversion unit for her. Upon arriving in Cardiff he got Lisa situated, returned the van to a local place that hired, and went to the Hub. He waited at the entrance, not wanting Jack to know he was aware of how to get in without his knowledge. He greeted Jack with a faint smile, stepping away from his embrace. He could not use Jack while he was doing this – he reminded himself – despite the fact he wished he was in Jack’s arms again.
Jack frowned when he saw Ianto, wondered who had beaten him up. He tried to hug him, but was not allowed to, Ianto pulled away from him. So he turned on his heel, told Ianto to follow him. He showed Ianto to an area in the Hub where he could stay until he set a flat up. Not the most comfortable bed, which he apologized for, but he thought that Ianto would not share his. He had set up an area while he was seeing Ianto for the two to sleep together, but Ianto had fallen for Lisa and he never returned to Cardiff for a weekend visit.
Despite it being none of his business, he wanted to know though, he asked how Ianto got the bruises – hearing he was mugged and beaten the previous evening while out getting dinner. He felt some guilt with that, wished he had stayed, taken him out to dinner, protected him. Jack offered to help with the injuries, not surprised by the ‘no’ he received.
Jack sighed, asking if he could do anything for him, Ianto saying no, asking after a while what his duties were there within Torchwood Three. He found his job would be similar to Torchwood London – he would work in the Archives – handle the phones – filing – the important coffee issues when they arose – knowing that was one way he could make Jack happy – feeling guilty about having to use him in others – Lisa wanting him to seduce the Capten again. Jack saw a sad look pass on his face and asked what he was thinking – Ianto made no reply. He leaned forward and kissed him softly – Ianto running off and to the Archives.
He went to his office and flounced into the chair in frustration. He had missed Ianto these past two years – had wanted him in Cardiff at his side.
He hoped that Ianto would make him some coffee soon – shifting his thoughts away from sex – Ianto’s touch – his body – soft kisses – he was not going to get his way there.
After running away from Jack’s kiss – he found out where the cyber conversion equipment was – then went to check on Lisa. Lisa was angry and she started to strike him – though since they were within Torchwood she kept her blows to where they would remain hidden – new injuries would be noticeable on his face. She asked if he had tried to fuck the Captain yet, angry to hear no. She looked at her lover – softened the look on her face – told him that in order for her to be human they needed the Captain’s help – his attention focused elsewhere. Her hand traveled down his body to his cock – pressing hard against it until he had an erection – then pushed him against a wall and sucked him to orgasm – sex being a way to control Ianto – violence another.
She told him to come back later that evening – she would tell him what to get – how to modify the equipment.
Ianto kissed her and went to the Archives, wanting to make it look as if he was working, though his mind was occupied elsewhere. He was happy that Jack did not drop by; he could not deal with that right now. Once the others had left the Hub and he hoped Jack was occupied, he went back to Lisa, getting a list from her of what to look for.
He went off to find everything, working most of the night just finding the pieces and he started the assembly. He stiffened when Lisa stood next to him, unsure of her current mood. This time he was told to undress and lay on the ground. Lisa soon on her knees beside him – she started to suck Ianto’s cock – fucking him first with her fingers then switching to the dildo – Ianto soon moaning – eyes closed – her face showing disgust – but she fucked him until his orgasm. Then allowed the little he could do to her body – she felt nothing during his caresses – wished this would end since she was now bored. Lisa told him he should leave and he did – they did not need the Captain to become suspicious.
