After two days ago, my boss tried to persuade me slightly by saying he hope everything just ok with me, so I won't have to do the big decision next month, it got me worried again..

/>I dunno what is it that i'm worried about
actually its not that I still want to stay, I just don't like him to show bad face at me on my last day and I don't want to feel bad that day..
Then it started bugging my mind again..what to say if he asked to stay again? should I pretend sick? what should I do? and suddenly I became really sick...

Then I think again... and again..and again...

then a little voice whisper in my ear..
" I just wanna be happy "
yup...
I just wanna be happy and enjoy this pregnancy all along until my baby is born
and although I know happy is not depent on the condition but in the state of mind, but I guess I'm better off at home then to feel trapped in here
I wanna enjoy travelling..
wanna do what I want to do..
at least for now, I want to spoil my self, before I don't even have the time to do so..

So..
I'm still holdin on tight to my decision />