Have you ever missed someone so much that it made your heart hurt? Strange philosophy, really... is the heart hurting figurative, or literal? We make it sound so literal, but if it were we would be headed off to the hospital, or at least should be headed there. So in that case, my heart figuratively hurts.

/>I miss you so much. I never wanted to see those pictures of you in the casket, ever again. And I just did. I'm sick and tired of hearing you're in a better place because really, in my eyes, you aren't. You should be here. You deserve to be alive on earth. I had just learned to live with the fact that you were gone, and now it's been brought up again. I've been told I'll see you again someday. When is someday? Is it soon? I wish I could see you NOW. I need you. Where are you? I wish you could come back, I pray for an answer, but I never get one. I'm almost upset with God, for having to end her life when she was so much a part of mine. I wasn't ready for her to leave. I don't think I will ever be okay with it. It makes my heart hurt that I can't go visit her elsewhere, wherever the angels sent down from heaven go. She was really something.

God, tell her that I love her.

I don't think I can get up this time.

xx Michelle.