today, im gonna make my first blog entry ever. haha! *noob* hehe! i didnt really have the luxury of time to put up a blog before. oh well, im here and my fingers are hitting the keys. hooooray! im looking forward to many blog entries in the future :) good luck to me.

im kinda confused where to start blabbing, yet i have to vent everything out to keep me intact.

*thinking*

here i am at the office. a while ago, my officemate, Ms. B approached me. she wanted me to correct the letter that she made. there i was, correcting the letter. when it was done, another officemate, Ms. J sent me a message through our internal messaging system *more like chatting inside the office kind of stuff* anyway, she told me not to help that officemate anymore. she hated the former so much. she'd gossip about her. before, Ms. B used to help Ms. J in encoding the orders into the system, but now that Ms. B accepted the offer of our boss and she got transferred into another position, Ms. B couldn't help her anymore because she has other things to do. since then, Ms. J started making stories about her. telling mean stuff about her to our other officemates and discouraging everything about her and her new position. she made Ms. B sound and look bad in other people's perspective.

i dont know why and where it all started. i consider all of my officemates my friends, i dont hold anything against Ms. B. i help her whenever i can, i treat her like the way i treat my close friends back from college. but there's this Ms. J and her group of gossip girls. its like im caught in the middle of their invisible fight. whenever Ms. B would approach me, Ms. J would then look at me with those glaring eyes telling me to stop talking to Ms. B. i feel bad for Ms. B coz she doesnt know the gossip running inside the office about her. i just cant tell everything to her straight out. i dont have the guts to tell her. i cant even approach Ms J and tell her that what she's doing is not good. if i do, i'd be attacked by her gossiping too. plus the fact that she has the full force of her back-up of gossip girls. i cant handle that. darn!

the atmosphere inside the office is so awkward already. Ms. B can sense it, everybody can sense it. and i hate it. as much as i want to do something about it, i cant. call me a coward. maybe i am. i dont take a stand. i please both sides. i know someday i might have to choose on which side i should be on. but right now i dont know what to do. i just wish they'd stop gossiping around.