I cannot win when it comes to my driver's license.

I still can't back up the car, parallel park, drive in the rain, or drive at night. There is no possible way for me to get 60 hours before the end of August. My mother refuses to help teach me becuase she's "too busy" and my dad won't because he's afraid I'll hurt his car. I can't drive with my brother as he's too young and there's only so many days my grandmother can come over (furthermore, she can only come over during the day and can't teach me at night, and doesn't seem to really want to teach me basic stuff. it's more about hanging out with me really...)

Likely even if I did go in, they'd tell me that I hadn't gone to driving school, and dear fucking god I have. TWICE. and if there's one thing I do NOT want to do again, it's sit through that goddamn motherfucking awful shit again, especially becuase it's not becuase I haven't LEARNED the stuff, it's becuase EVERY SINGLE TIME I run out of time on my learner's permit before I go back to school, and because my STUPID PARENTS are never around to teach me.

Mom, I can EITHER have a summer job OR learn to drive. I'm so glad I didn't get a real full time job becuase then I'd have NO time at all.

The worst part is? mom will totally blame me not getting my permit AGAIN on me. IT ISN'T MY FAULT THIS TIME. I'm TRYING so goddamn hard and I want the stupid fucking thing this time! FOR REALS. AND NOW I CAN'T Akgj;djf das AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUGH.

I just can't win. I feel so helpless.