Oh, you can't see my future because there is an elephant in the way? 
Well, that makes sense.  I guess I am the elephant in the way of my future. 
My sister punched/pinched my stomach like a million times yesterday.  It hurts so much.  I hate myself for being such a fat elephant.  :( 
I'm 5'10'', and now I'm 120lbs, but I have to be less than 100, I think, to be thin enough.  So maybe 95 or something...  I hate myself.  
ughhhhhhhhhhh... And today is Sunday, so we have a stupid family brunch.  And it's always pasta in meat sauce.  I'm a vegetarian, so I already have a problem with the meat sauce.  And I'm fat, so I definitely have a problem with the pasta.  I need to learn to throw up, cause this is ridiculous.  I can't eat like this.  I'm so worried that I don't even want to get up (out of bed) - and I have tonssssssssss of homework, so this is bad.  I REALLY don't want to eat lunch though.  :( 
My mom is driving me absolutely crazy.  She keeps going like, you know, if something is wrong, you can talk to me.  Well, that's where she's WRONG!  Because I can't talk to her about anything, she always just ends up lecturing me and making me feel worse.  Either that, or we get constantly interrupted by other people in the house.  Besides, she would NEVER understand.  
I took tons of laxies last night to get rid of the disgusting muffin I ate yesterday.  (Forced, of course...) 
I hate myself so much. 
This is so dumb, and pointless though, posting here.  I'm just a tree alone in the middle of the forest, and no one hears me cry.  :(