My mother.

I swear to god, if something natural doesn't kill her I will do it myself.

So remember how I said she has just had something up her ass all today? Yeah well I found out exactly what it was about.


A fucking picture.


Yes. A picture. A picture that she knows I absolutly hate, but she hung up in my room anyway. It's a useless painting that quite honestly, I wish would burn. Now here's the problem about the picture. I took it down. I replaced it with my new Tsubasa Wallscroll that I got at Matsuri. I love my scroll. It looks great.

So this morning she comes into my room asking me what I was going to do about and come on! Of course I'm not gonna respond pleasently! I went to bed at 3 a.m. and it was about 9 something, I'm tired as hell and quite frankly not feeling all that great. After 19 years you would think they'd learn to just leave me be in the morning and not bombared me with questions that if I answer wrongly will affect their mood!

So she has been pissy, hateful and an overall raging bitch because of the picture. A. Fucking. Picture.

It's not even valuble. At all. The frame is chipped and it's a stupid picture!! It creeps me out!!! I hate it! I have told her I hate it! And she put it in my room anyway! And you know what?! She fucking told me if my room was clean I would be able to have more freedom about decoration and damnit to hell if my room has not been kept clean!!! So fucking sue me if I want my scroll up!!!! All I want is that one bit of freedom!!! But no! I can't fucking have that!!!

IT'S A GOD DAMNED PICTURE GET THE FUCK OVER IT YOU SELFISH BITCH!

I'm just so through with it all! I cannot wait to get out! I am through with her, I am through with my father insisting she is just wanting me to change my attitude and doesn't want me out. BULLSHIT! You know why I'm starting to get this attitude?! Because I have done nothing but try to fucking please that woman and she hasn't shown any form of being pleased or anythign! And I am fucking sick and tired of it! When I am out of here, so help me if I don't cut off all ties with her. I am through! If she's going to be this way about every small fucking thing I don't give a shit what happens to her.

So hear me out gods, let this rain pour harder and let the roads become the devil. If she were to swerve off.

I can honestly say, I wouldn't care. I would not be fazed.

Call me cold hearted, call me a bitch, call me whatever. But if you were in my spot, you'd feel the same damn way. The woman is not needed. All she does is continously bring me down. I do not hear any kind of praise from her ever. I don't ever get the respect or the attention that I should get. To her I'm just someone she takes out all her fucking anger on and I'm through with it. If I can, I'll transfer to any out of town University ASAP. I'm done dealing with it.

A fucking picture! Augh! I'm just still amazed at how she can make something so small and insignificant a huge ordeal!!!! It belonged to my grandmother, my father's mother who she despised!!! There is no fucking emotional attachment to it for her or anything!!! I'm just sick of shit like this!!!! AUGH!