Okay.  

I was so offended.  I couldn't believe it.  

Okay, maybe I have been talking about babies more frequently as of late.  I can't help it.  I'm bored all day at work, so what do I do?  I torture entertain myself by looking at pregnancy/baby related things.  And then I bring bits and pieces of it home with me... I can't help that I like talking with him about it.  Is that wrong?  Is it wrong that I want to share this stuff, that I find so fascinating, with him, too?  Maybe.  :/

Anyways, I was actually starting to believe that he was becoming more open to the idea of TTC sooner rather than later.  But when he says things like that... apparently he's still adamantly "waiting until he feels ready to be a father" and I'm sorely mistaken in my belief that I'm getting anywhere with him. 

I know that if we had a baby or one on the way, we'd be fine.  We are in such a better situation than we were a few months ago.  I mean really... in every aspect.  But he still insists that he's just not ready to be a father.  I can understand that to a degree, but it kills me that he refuses to talk about it or give me any idea what kinds of things have to happen for him to be ready.  He sounds like a broken record.  "Someday. Someday. Someday."

I'm probably blowing this all out of proportion because of my hormones lately... but it really, truly, slaughtered my feelings.  Even worse than waiting to have a baby is being given false hope that it will happen soon, and then having that hope ripped away from you.  

*sigh*

Sorry for the whiny rant.  But this is so frustrating, and I needed to vent somewhere.