Pairings: Yoosu, Jaeho, slight JaeChun and Hosu

Genre: Angst

Summary: How will love blossom between lies and betrayal? Will forgiveness bloom in their hearts? Will they find peace and contentment despite of anger and misery they are feeling? Will hearts once torn by deception find its way back to be together?

                Love really is a complicated thing…

Junsu’s POV

I’m just an ordinary boy with ordinary dreams.

I want to graduate in a university, have work and marry someday.

Never did I imagine that my life would suddenly change until I met a certain guy named Park Yoochun.

He is my first… first friend, first crush, first love, first lover and first heartache.

I met him in my first year of college.

He was my ‘classmate’.

He is taking up a business course while I pursue music major.

I was quite surprise when I learned about this.

It was then that Kim Jaejoong entered the picture.

He is Yoochun’s best friend.

He also takes up a music course.

Jae is technically my classmate while Chun is just sitting-in.

 In our first day of class, Jae and Chun were sitting together.

They are laughing at their own jokes.

I looked around the classroom and saw an available sit beside Yoochun.

I sat there quietly while the two continued to chitchat.

I am an introvert type of person that was why I never mingled with the others.

All those years of attending school, it was just Junho and me and no one else.

For the others who didn’t know him, Junho is my twin brother.

I love him very much.

We made a pact to never let anyone be between us, that we will always be at each others side and that we’ll love each other forever.

Forever…

But then fate has a different path for us…

Something happened and now, we are far apart.

 Even though it’s hard, I continued to breath and followed those simple dreams.

I heard the bell rang.

I was about to get up from my seat when the guy beside me turned at my side and smiled at me. He then said,

“I’m Yoochun and this is Jaejoong. Guess, we will see each other for quite a while huh?”

I stared at him and his fellow.

I am puzzled as to why they approached me but then I answered courteously.

“I guess so. I’m Junsu”

And then I saw his hand moved and hold mine.

I looked up to him and felt that he shook it.

“Friends”, he said and smiled again.

My heart beat rapidly but then I managed to answer him.

“Friends” I said and I smiled at him too.

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And that is my biggest mistake…

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The three of us became friends instantly.

I really enjoyed their companies, especially Yoochun.

I learned that he is really interested in pursuing music, but then he is the only heir of his father in their business. That was why he is forced to take up a business course.

But then, he is really stubborn. He buts-in onto Jaejoong’s classes just to annoy his father and learn more about his passion.

He said that he’s a composer by heart.

I scanned a few of his works and was impressed by them.

I can say that he has a talent.

I was really happy when he asked me if I could sing one of his songs.

I gladly accepted it knowing that it would lead me closer to him.

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My heart yearns for him…

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I could say that these past few days, I always thought of him.

How he talks, how he smiles, how he winks at me, how he easily cries through a falling leaf, how he eats his noodles, how he sips his coffee, how he does everything!

I was quite confused and nervous at how my feelings for him became deeper as the day goes by.

I knew I have a crush on him.

I waited patiently for these feelings to go away. Maybe, it is infatuation as I said to myself.

I didn’t notice that I was falling even harder for him.

I found myself spacing out just thinking of him.

I was a bit jealous of Jaejoong too.

I knew they are buddies but I can’t help it!

Every time they hug each other, sleep together, go clubbing together, I get insane.

I already admitted to myself that I don’t stand a chance.

Hey, Jae is much more beautiful, talented, dorky, and CLOSER to Chun.

Heck! It is not only Jae that I have to worry about.

Almost all the girls in our school swoon over him.

>I hate it because he enjoys all those attention being given to him.

I also hate myself for being affected this much.

And then a sudden thought hit me.

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I think I love him…

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“Wanna go out?” he said.

 I looked up to him.

“Go clubbing with Jae hyung?” I asked.

“No, just you and I. You know, I think I want to hit the amusement park this weekend.” He answered.

I’m surprised of his sudden invitation.

It’s not like him to ask me out.

Does he have a fever?

I don’t think so, by the way, he jumps up and down just to beg me to come with him.

“Why not Jae hyung?” I asked again.

I’m freaking nervous!

Yoochun, you’ve got to have a satisfying answer to me.

Or else…

 “Because he thinks it silly!” he snorted.

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And I heard my heart cracked.

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It is a good day indeed!

Looking at Yoochun licking his ice cream, I felt my heart skip a beat.

Although I am hurt with what he said < Because he thinks it silly!>

I don’t have the guts to say no to him. I just can’t.

We stroll around the park.

We tried different rides.

We screamed at the top of our lungs on that roller coaster ride!

We became kids again for a while.

We kept running and teasing each other.

>I am happy!

Happy to be with him…

No Jaejoong by his side…

No swooning girls…

Just the two of us…

I wished that time would stop so that we could stay in this way.

It was dark when we decided to try out the Ferris Wheel.

Yoochun held my hand.

I stared at him and he smiled at me.

The warmth of his hand brings comfort to mine.

It’s getting relatively cold and I love the feeling he brings to me.

The night is getting older.

As we walked into one of those giant ‘eggs’ he continued to held my hand.

By this time, I could feel my face getting warmer.

Oh gosh! I’m blushing.

I hope that the dimness of the place hid my face well.

>.<

“Wow!” he gasped.

I looked at the window and was amazed by the spectacular view.

City lights never fail to draw my breath.

I got up for my seat and I saw Yoochun did the same too.

We were really consumed by the scenery.

We fell silent and felt contented in sight seeing.

I didn’t notice that Yoochun was staring at me.

It was until I met his gaze.

I was taken aback by his movements.

He suddenly hugged me from behind.

“Y-Yoo-chun!” I said.

“Hmmm?” he mumbled.

I could feel his face rests on the crook of my neck.

I shuddered.

“Why?” I whispered.

I could feel him hug me tighter.

“Su?” he murmured.

I looked at him and said,

“What?”

Yoochun sighed.

Silence deafened our ears.

I could feel my heart was ready to burst at any moment from its rapid beating.

Even though I feel warm from his embrace, my feet were getting cold from this awkward moment.

He sighed again.

This time, loudly.

I heard him speak once again.

“Can you be mine?” he asked.

I stared at him, unsure if I heard it right.

Our eyes met and I couldn’t remember how our lips met as well too.

At that time, all I could remember is to give in to what my heart says.

And that is to turn around and cling onto his neck for my dear life.

It felt so right.

I thought it was too good to be true and so, I start wishing to never wake up from this dream.

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As our lips met begun a sorrowful relationship…

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A/N: it is my first time to write a multi chap!
Pardon for my tenses!
It is not beta-ed!
this is my first story ever since my unplanned hiatus, hope you yoosu lovers love it out there!

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