Today is the day before Chrissy leaves. It's also the day after her beloved boyfriend Luke left. I think today she was feeling a bit sensitive. Anyway, we went to the shopping centre to buy some bras. We were in major need. So we went to La Senza. Chrissy and her best friend, Charlotte, absolutly love it. We got in there and picked out some underwear to try on. We came out and decided none of them fitted so went to look for a different size. We tried those on but when Chrissy came out the changing room she was crying. I took her to one side and decided it was best to hug her. We stood there for a while then in a cold shaky voice she said to me "When you have breast cancer, is there a hard fixed lump?" I looked at her for a while and started to cry too.

I didn't know what to do. We talked to mum and she said wait for the "Women's Cycle" to turn and then check because it might just be a scare. I don't know how i felt about this but for her sake I'm feeling quite scared.

After we ate lunch i helped her pack and it seemed to take her mind off things. She was having a mini dilemma about what to take for hand lugage. I guess that's just Chrissy being Chrissy.

She went on msn and was having a small argument with her ex-boyfriend David for some reason. She told me it hurts her to talk to him. She told him about the scare, we still have no idea, after all we have to wait for 2 weeks. He always seems to make her feel bad because he always says he still loves her. She really loved him but i supose its for the best. Personally, i think she needs to tell him to piss off, he did dump her twice. She has a new boyfriend now and she loves him a fucking lot by the sounds of things.

Chrissy also spoke to Patty today. They haven't spoken in a while. Chrissy seemed upset. Patty was meant to be a really good friend of hers but aparently she hasn't been showing it.

I'm still worried about this whole cancer thing. It might be nothing. I'm suposed to be strong for her but how can I when I'm so scared. What do you do when the most important person in your life has something like that? I really don't know.


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