We had auditions for districts today. I have the lurking suspicision that Mrs. G totally hates me. No, like really. Even if she does, she'll warm up to me. I'm a very likable person after one gets to know me properly. But anyway, besides the fact that she probably wants to strangle me and use my carcass as a rug  find her to be quite easily the most likeable teacher at our school. She is perfectly amiable and amazingly passionate about acting. I find that to be rather refreshing, you know. I mean, honestly, when was the last time that I had a teacher who actually liked what they were teaching? Precisely, it has been far too long since someone was actually  in love with their subject. Besides that fact, I'm sure that my solo won't even make it out of the doors of her classroom. Augh, it was simply terrible.  Terrible! Seriously, no joke.

We also started reading JC in English class. Goodness, it seems like everything is going perfectly. First we read my favorite N.Diamond play in Drama and now in English we commence my favorite Shakespeare. Wonderful, isn't it? It's like the person in charge of literature decided that it was a year to humor me. We're going to call it  The Year of the Lucial ( Loo-shul) Humoring. Isn't that dreadfully clever? I think it is. Anyway, pertaining to JC and Characters I Like vs. Characters That Make Me Want To Cry,  I seem to have a horribly large soft spot for all of Shakespeare's malcontents-- the plural of malcontent? I don't know-- without a question. I love Iago and I freaking LOVE Cassius. I don't know why, but I do. It's like asking a fish why it swims. More importantly, that example should be viewed metaphorically, if only because fish can't actually respond to you.

 As the cheif conspirator, Caius Cassius is consumed with jealousy directed at Caesar; and yet, the latter's imprint on Rome is so great that Cassius feels conspired against  by forces that are beyond his control. Cassius is a classic malconten. Our dear Caius is that typical young man who's ambitions have been thwarted who plots against others because they have been overlooked or simply because they are actually malicious. In a way, Caius [ I have this bothersome habit of referring to people I am not familiar with but respect/like by their first names] anticipates Iago's persona. We can see traces of Cassius in Iago, beginning with the simplest of characteristics: working through others to attain what he [ Iago or Caius] wants. 

Anyway, enough perving over Shakespeare, I'm so fucking tired. Before I go though, here is a parting thought for all: Can the relationship between Caius and Brutus be interpreted as friendly or intimate. Consider, before you answer, the romantic inclinations of the romans and how they percieved sexuality and the role of women in these sexual endeavors.  <3 Lucia

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