Well, here I am. I'll be in New Orleans this weekend for Halloween and my grandparents 65th wedding anniversary! They've been married 3 times longer than I've been I've alive. Crazy, isn't it? I wish I could celebrate it at IUP since a bunch of cool people [Read the two coolest people I know: Liz and Holly] will be up there and last year we had a blast. (Crucio! Got any butter BEER Sarah Gower?!! Oh man good times] but I know New Orleans is going to be CRAZY!FUN. I'm going as a 50s girl with a poodle skirt and a ribbon around my neck and everything. It should be cute! My sister had a battle with her husband but in the end he just said he wasn't going to dress up and that's that. Silly Brit.

Well, I've come to the conclusion that I need to move. I'm not that unmarketable. I should be able to get a job, I really should. I've tried let's count them - 6 temp agencies/staffing services. I understand that the economy sucks right now, but FOR FUCK'S SAKE people! I've also been job hunting other places full time for nearly 2 months now and I'm exhausted. I feel like all I ever think about is finding a job and when I'm not thinking about finding a job I feel lazy. Adecco did call me with a possibility of a placement which I interviewed for last night. If I get that I'll re-evaluate after Christmas when it ends. Liza, you're going to be amused by this - it's a greeter position at the Verizon store! It would be 40 hours a week which would be a lot of standing but whatever and it pays quite well.

In any event I need to leave Baltimore sooner than later. I'm thinking after Christmas if possible. I have some options. If I manage to scrap together enough cash there is a work abroad program in Auckland, New Zealand that I would LOVE to do. Of course I'd have to find a place to stay there and the 27 hour flight costs about 2 grand. This same program is also in Australia and Ireland, both which I'm sure are also expensive but the one in Dublin is probably cheaper. I have some extend family members in Dublin too which is a plus. The one in New Zealand places you in a job which is appealing to me after all this job hunting. I've also always dreamed of visiting New Zealand.

My other, probably more realistic option, is to stay with my Godmother/Aunt in St. Augustine, Florida for a few months and find a job down there. I've never been there but it sounds beautiful, is a big biking community, and close to Jacksonville so a city would be close by. I could save money to move to California there since I wouldn't have to pay rent (I assume, I would have to talk it over with my relatives.) One plus here, is that my godmother and I get along very well. There is also a possibility of she and my Uncle traveling from what I understand and in that case they may like it if someone is living in their house.

I don't know what is going happen, honestly, I am just detailing all my options. I recently heard that a kid I graduated with is living in India. Other people are having interesting work, or hey, work at all. I just get depressed and discouraged, sleeping in the same bed I did when I was 8, seeing everyone else move forward in their lives. I don't want to waste any more of my youth.