I am an abusive, pathetic sack of shit. What I did was cruel, evil, and wrong...all because someone threw my CD player and I no longer had any source of music. Who fucking CARES if I don't cope well without music--there was NO excuse for how I reacted.

The part that makes me even angrier? My folks did NOTHING. Instead of throwing my sorry ass out, they kept me here, and even went through the trouble of buying me a new CD player. What the hell is WRONG with this picture? It doesn't matter if I'm 'only' 17--I should not have hurt my sibling like I did. And I didn't even get a lecture! I am absolutely pissed at myself for what I did, and at my folks for not even taking action. And in comparison to what I did, she still apologized to me. Needless to say, the world would be better off without a whiny, pathetic, evil thing like me.

/>I deserve to be punished. I deserve any suffering I may ever go through. After today, it's quite evident why any negative thing happens to me.