This is my rough plan and thinking.

Thinking: This ain't gonna be easy but I've lived this way before and the only people it bothered was everyone bar me. I just have to stop living in the past. I'm not going to wakeup and find that this has all been a horrible dream and I'm still only 5kg from my goal weight. Being relativley normal was all fun and games until I Iook in the mirror. I want to be able to shower with my eyes open and exercise in public again and the only way thats ever going to happen is if I knuckle down and do some good hard work. I will get back to where I was only stronger because I now know what will happen if I fail. This will happen if I fail.

Plan: First of, not weighing myself until the new year. Thats a long time off but I'm going to need this next for months for serious damage control. I'm going to focus on the weight loss first then move into toning up once I am respectable again. September is my extreme month. I'm wanting to absolutley demolish my appetite in this month. I'll be eating between 0 and 300 cals a day every day, no excuses. I'm already a vegeterian so this month I'll also be cutting out most/all dairy products. I'm going to only eat when I'm feeling faint. I am no longer bullemic. October I'll move to under 500 cals a day which if I succed in killing my appetite during September should be easy. Before recovery 500 cals was my max a day but this time round I'm hoping by November I'll be consistently consuming 300 or less. If all goes to plan I should also be a descent size to start exercising in public again and am going to start yoga or pilates. December will be less than 500 with as much exercise as possible to get ready for the big day on January 1st 2009.  Weight and body measurments will hopefully be what they use to be. Maybe even less.