Thus far:

Write a debasing scene. Done, and turned in, to approval. Might share later, after covertly asking for permission.

Write list of ten shameful good things. And ten shameful bad things. Do's and Don'ts.

(Remember that i'm new to this, right? I know some other people wouldn't allow dont's...i've been reading blogs for awhile now. But i still need some boundaries for myself. (I'll go into a big thought process on this later, no doubt.) So while there are things that i dislike, say, public displays of affection, i'm okay with being forced to do them, vs things like being forced to look ugly in public, which, while i don't think'll happen, would make me very very sad indeed. I don't think it'd come up, but, it's nice to be given the option to voice concerns.)

Standing in a corner for ten minutes. Felt verrrrrry silly. I am such a disobedient girl so far. All i could think about was "why the hell am i doing this for a man?" and, "why the hell do i like doing this for a man?" Questions that will perhaps be answered in the fullness of time.

I'm seeing him tomorrow night, or Sat, or if i'm a very good little girl, both :D. And i'm to bring a pair of jeans that are super tight. He wants to make cute jean shorts for me that are inappropriate for public wearing...cute for him. But but but...i have serious body issues. Like a lot of sub girls, i think. I'm amazed that he thinks that i'm pretty at all. Which is dumb, because i am pretty (curvy, red hair, blue eyes) i know it on the surface -- just not deep underneath where it counts. But if i weren't broken, this game wouldn't be so much fun, no? If i weren't broken, i wouldn't even be playing. If it is a game. Heh.

Now that i've started about ten different dry future post topics in this one post...the next post'll be about sex. Promise.