Things that made jingjing very negative.
1.she flunked her ACC test although she studied for it the whole freaking night,trying to memorise all those shit.while people who did not study for the test thought the test was okay just because they managed to study the right things.she intends to complain to the school forum and tell them that if they freaking include that into the chinese marks,i will die in front of their eyes and be that freaking girl who jumped down of the clock tower and hunt this bloody school for years.
2.she has not studied the chinese test tomorrow all thanks to ACC,and tomorrow is a test that is a very heavy weightage for my chinese marks and i haven't even touched a single bit.BRA-VO.
 .this is something i'm freaking angry about,and it really makes me want to scream.jianan jiaolian is going crazy and well,it seems like i'm his outlet,like how miss teo treated me as her outlet,he is super bias against all the others.he only scolds me.whenever i do wrong,it's me,me,and me.and the first time he scolded me,i put up with me,cos' i thought hey,maybe i was annoying or something.the second time,i did something wrong,he shouted at me and asked me to get lost,well,the first time,he asked me to get lost to,just that he didn't shout.well,of course,i really hate it when people shout at me,cos' i freaking hate people to do that.and worst of all is,whenever other people get the thing wrong,he doesn't scold,he tell them nicely,only me.me.me
it's like i'm the one the world hates.it's like no matter what i try to do,it seems like wtf-who-really-cares kind of thing.well,i figured the possible reasons is that well,i have a face that nobody likes,i'm not good at anything i do,and people think i'm useless.or wtf,i don't really know la,okay.i got seriously mad at him and i didn't even look at him while we were doing practises.after the whole thing i wasnted to message YZ about this but,something was stopping me.i hate it,i need to say something out,but there's just this something that keeps me back,and make me unwilling to share about it.
and well,i didn't pray to god last night about those things because i didn't want to make anytime for him,because i didn't really have any,because there were too much work for me to do.it's like,i really need to talk to god,but time time time,has always made me kept a distance from him.and it just sucks.
4.miss f. is the only teacher who gives us SEL homework,like as if we don't have enough homework to do and things to study for?!just let us watch some videos,write some stupid reflection and let us go already.seriously lorh,teachers don't even use the file,and i have to wase freaking $3.90 to buy a thing that woun't do me much good.that sucks.
5.match with ngeeeann is tomorrow.after what coach j.a did to me today,i don't want to even play now.i really don't like the fact that scolded me like that.