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Published : 3 months, 2 weeks ago (Sun, 17 Aug 2008 12:06:19 PDT)
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The second slash fic I ever wrote circa October 2001.
Title: Nobody Knows
Rating: G
Pairing: Joshtin
Warning: It’s slash, it's rps, it's FICTION
Summary: Not even Justin knows how he feels.
Feedback: Yes please.
Archive: If you want it let me know but please don't take it without asking and don't steal it cause that's just not cool yo.
Nobody Knows
Justin shifted slightly in the now empty bed. He thought
about the events of the day. How had he ended up alone in bed? He
remembered in a flash.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
JC had Justin wrapped in his arms, waiting for their breathing to return to normal. The sound came feather light against Justin’s right ear, “I love you.”
Justin stiffened a little and then tried to relax and pretend to be asleep. He heard a sharp intake of breath and JC let him go. Shit he thought.
“Justin.”
Justin tried to keep his sleeping act up.
“Justin I know you’re not sleeping so stop it.”
Justin opened his eyes and sat up, “What JC?”
He knew very well what the problem was.
“What was that?”
“What C?”
JC said it again, “I love you.”
He watched as Justin noticeably stiffened and his eyes fell to the floor.
“That Justin. What is that? Actually you don’t have to answer that, I already know.”
JC reached for his clothes and dressed in a hurry.
“JC wait a minute. I can explain.”
“Justin stop, okay? I fucked up. I’m sorry I dragged you into this, I thought maybe you wanted me as much as I wanted you but I was obviously wrong and that’s okay because I shouldn’t have assumed. So you don’t have to explain. I’ll just leave and I’ll see you tomorrow. Bye”
Justin watched as JC walked out the door.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
And that is what had gotten him to where he was now. Three little words that he hadn’t been able to say.
~*2 Weeks later*~
Justin sat in his kitchen absolutely miserable. He missed JC terribly but wouldn’t let anyone know how he felt. He had gone out every night with the guys and treated JC like he was common people. Just a ‘hi’ and a ‘bye’ whenever he entered or exited a room where JC was. It killed him to do it but he didn’t know what else to do.
Since JC had left Justin was miserable and he knew why, he loved JC but was too scared to admit it even to himself. Tonight was another night of appearances. The group was heading to a local radio station and then a party at a club that the station was hosting. A whole night with JC and he wouldn’t be able to touch him the way he wanted to or even
look him in the eye. He was scared and he had no idea how to get the one thing he needed back.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Lance sat in front of Justin, “J be honest, you miss him.”
“No. We needed this time apart Lance. It feels good to be just me. You know?”
Lance shrugged and sighed, “Alright J. Say what you want but your eyes tell a different story.”
Lance gave him a sad smile and leaned close to his ear, “It’d be so much easier if you were honest with yourself.”
With that he walked away to go mingle. Justin sighed and watched JC across the room
talking with some tall blonde guy. After 10 min Justin stood up and walked over to him, “Sorry. Excuse me,” he turned to JC, “Can I talk to you for a minute?”
JC looked at his companion, excused himself and followed Justin to a small room off of the main dance floor, “What do you want Justin?”
“Josh, I love you.”
“What? You have got to be kidding me!”
He threw his arms up in the air and laughed, “You love me? That’s nice Justin but you had your chance and you played with my heart and broke it so now I am going to walk out of this room and you are gonna leave me alone.”
He turned to the door.
”Wait!”
He stopped.
“I didn’t mean to break your heart. I was scared. So damn scared and I was a coward. Since you left all I can think about is you, how I miss you, how I want you, you, you, you, you. I love you. I’m so sorry I was a coward and I broke you heart and I’m sorry that I caused you pain. Please give me a chance to make it up to you.”
JC turned back to the door and walked out. Justin sunk to the floor and let the tears flow. Suddenly he heard JC’s voice in the other room, “I’d like to dedicate this to a special someone, you know who you are, I love you too and I missed you. I know now baby so don’t be scared anymore. Here’s your chance.”
The intro to a familiar song floated through the club and Justin stood up wiping his face.
Wish I'd told her how I feel
Maybe she'd be here right now
But instead
I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls are closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumbling down
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
And nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past 3
I'm screamin' at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now
You know I'll be lovin' you still
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
Tomorrow mornin' I'm hitting the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
He walked out of the room and walked to where JC stood in the spotlight, not caring who watched, who saw, or who knew that he, Justin Timberlake, loved Joshua Chasez. He walked into JC’s open arms where he belonged. Now everyone knew and he wouldn’t have it any other way.
“Nobody Knows”
By: The Tony Rich Project
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